"that's bad news, so why am i secretly happy?"


i hate myself! nono.. its nothing suicidal. hahaha
ok, i just spent $124 on a pair of heels. :((((((
hold up! the actual price was 248! it was a gd deal.
depressing, i know. but it was so.. nice.
and the best part is, i dont use heels much.
i know but i guess its a present for myself.
for being such an understanding, caring, kind
and special human being.

hahahaha. i just got off the phone with bren
after a good hour. he is funny.
really, really, funny. he could be like MR BEAN 2.
i mean, he's got the potential.
ok, so he tried to teach me "hong kong speeding.."
on the phone. and he sounded really mono-tone.
it was funny. thanks bren, i needed a good laugh!
there was even this like.. moment when she started
mumbling. hahaha. and after a few seconds, he went like..
"oh no i think im very tired" hahaha.

okok, i need to get ready now. going to meet my friendzzz
and jackie for a while, she's gonna pass me something.
byebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebyebye.

its 3.18am. hahaha.

ben said the last entry was UNfunny.

im sorry that i failed to make you laugh 2day.

maybe its because no one made me laugh today.

i mean, a penguin from Happy Feet made me laugh,

but its not really a real person.

cause firstly, its fiction and it only

moves cause the computer tells it too. hahaha.

ok this is sleepy talk. in moments like this..

i think of bren.. and his

"hong kong speeding..." moments.

look at this! he's not even next to me and im

laughing just thinking about him

dancing and singing. one day, i'll put a pic of him.

oh wth! why dont i do it now.

everyone, this is brendon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(the middle man)

(next to the girl)

ps; feel free to laugh at him

So you lost your trust,
And you never should have,
But don't break your back,
If you ever hear this,
Don't answer that.

good evening! its a very very rainy day.
i spent almost the whole day in town,
but i didn't really get all wet.
i kind of just hung out with michaela.

it is true. i am becoming like a caveman.
i sleep at the wrong time of the day,
and get up at the wrong time of the day.
sometimes i sleep for 16 hours and forget its the next day.
or if i stay up for 48 hours, i forget what day it is.
so barbaric. i feel like some kinda lost animal.

some say, time kills your pain
i say, pain kills my time.

good morning! okay, so not really. its like 9.20pm
but i just got up from my sleep and missed the gig.
sorry gabriel!

yesterday was really really crap. but as usual, fun.
and yes, i was awake all night. when we all got back
at anthony's place at about 8am, we all didn't hasitate to
knock out even if it was on the bloody floor.
but i had to bath. i dont like that sticky feeling. eww
i slept at 9am, and got up at 3pm.
we all went to eat after that, and agreed to meet at night
again. but i fell alseep. hahahaha. i smell like anthony now.

You have nothing to say
Except to innocently ask,
Your voice delicate as glass,
"Do you see me when we pass?"
But i continue on my way.

today succccckz.

i got home, at 9am, and slept.

told myself toget up at 1pm.

but i got up at 7.15pm!

promised mikey we'd go out,

but then, i overslept. aaaaaaaaaargh!

i feel like such a bad friend.

she must be hating my guts right now

hahahahah. but suddenly, i m in a gd mood.

see how my feelings change so fast?

recently, its been like that.

Just live for today

Least that's what they try to say

They said that we'd pick

Then they'll take your pain away

you wouldn't know love, even if it hit you in the face

today i laughed really hard.

i can't remember why though.

i think it was cause Nez said my eyes were nice.

ha-ha-ha you hear that ben? you hear that?

ben keeps denying the obvious.

when it is soooooo obvious.

that well..

1. im so funny
2. my eyes are nice in the sun
3. i speak great english
4. i laugh when i read my own blog
5. (something else, but i kinda forgot)

basically today was about hanging around. we all kinda just sat at the roadside and irrtated each other. might not be your idea of fun but.. well.. it actually was

good morning! it is now 1.34am
we have decided to go for breakfast again.
same time, same place, but more people.
the wait is so boringgggg. BO-RRRRRRING.

there's nothing to do, and jackie just hung
up on me. she said she was going to call me
back. but i'd be a fool to believe her. hahaha.

so the countdown startsssssss now

Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day

its 5.30 in the bloody morning!!!!!!!

and 3 of us are awake. aiman, me and faiz.

i tried to wake ben up.. but its hopeless.

he's as good as dead when he's sleeping.

so the 3 of us have decided to meet for breakfast.

im like WTH cause i just ate. -_-

i'll just go to enjoy the company of my friends i guess.

later guysss!

off i go!

And so typically,

And so typically,

Soft, set back and perfectly dropped,

Tough and learn, and so perfectly taught.

I am as she does,

You are as he was.

remember this picture? when half the world went
"awwww!"


hey! how ya doin'? okkkk.
i've been living on subway the past week or two.
and i eat the same thing, like again and again.
and no, im not sick of it. hahaha.

today we went just stuck to the east side.
did you know i could actually break-dance?
i know.. and i just found about this skill,
two days ago.

Where'd you go?

Would you have the guts to say

I don't love you,

Like I loved you,

Yesterday.

yo! how ya nigga's doing? ya feelin' me dawg?

hahhaha. i feel so annoying. i haven't taken a
bath yet and i've got like 6-7 people waiting
for me now.

i've got to stop this. staying up the whole night,
only sleeping at 8am. then geting up at 3 then go
out the whole night again. hahaha.
its like i only communicate to my mum through cash.
and that's not much either, cause she just leaves it
on the table. hahaha.

before aiman really gets irritated, i am going to get ready,
cause according to them, everyone's there! SHIAAAAAAAT.

good morning! its now 1.08am!
in the next 2-3 hours time, i will turn to stone
and eventually fall alseep like all the other
nights. and then get up at 2 if not 3.
if idiots call my house to get me up then its 1.

for the past few days i also have been pretty
happy!

some gay guy: "O-M-G, did anyone tell you that you're
beautiful!"

girl : "ummm no " *smiling*

some gay guy: "yeah, well.. cause you're not"

today i watched STEP UP. ok, listen to this..
i mean it might make me seem weird,
but really, im not.
ok so, while i was watching step up..
its a dance show btw. once in a while,
while they were dancing and all..
i occasionally bounced to the music.
and i was like totally unaware of it until
after a long time. which...
reminds me, of those wannabe dancers.
well, whatever. i can't dance anyway.

See the strange boy, talking to his shadow.
He's got a secret to tell.
His imaginary friend knows everything.
Don't let him go out.
He says they won't believe you,
You don't know what you're talking about.

how are we going? hahaha..... this is good.
i like this peace. Saddam Hussein was caught!
he was hiding is some kinda cave. -_-
what an asshole. anyway, he'll be hanged.
i can hear the Hallelujiah chorus!

i have been watching most of the movies twice.
i've been hanging around most places just laughing
and eating. eating especially! :O
its ok, its the holidays.. enjoy while you can. ;)

so, my bestfriend's migrating.
im going to have a little ruth-tash time on thurs.
i'll miss her, yes i'll miss her :)

toys'r'us (if this pic doesn't make you laugh, you suck)

i love those kinda in-your-face pictures,
or jumping-out-of-pictures pictures.
confused? haha. its ok.

the past few days were kinda busy okkk
but tomorrow, it's time to meet teri!
we're going to jog (i knowww.. lame you say.)
then after, im going to party!
today was good. i watched "the covenant"
with.. about 9 people? then we went to gelare!
woahwoah. anthony was like a kid, protecting his
ice cream and waffles. hahahaha.

ok, mum nagging. need to brush teeth &
put retainers on. -_-

i love the holidays!