On the 22nd I held a small party at my house for Nes's 18th, and when i woke up at 3pm the next day..empty glasses were on the floor with a bailey's bottle near them. "mmmm, so this is what i did last night..." and knocked out again till 430pm.

somethin somethin for you to look at!

SCUM BAG BITCH SLUT MOTHERFUCKING WHORE TIT FACE FUCK OFF! FUCKING SLUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

i dont know what to say, and i don't know what to think..
what i do know is i need a strong drink, and lots& lots of nicotine.
anything to get this out of my head. anything



"we open up, unfinished parts, broken up, its only love."

So Nique is my cousin..and she is well, so much more trust worthy with family information compared to myself..

Jackie: Wanna eat on Saturday, like a proper dinner?
Tash: ok, set
Jackie: set ah, DONT YOU DARE change plans! I book you on saturday evening.
Tash: yup..ok
Jackie: oh wait! you also another one right, cannot right?
Tash: huh? what do you mean?
Jackie: Nique said it's your grandmother's birthday!
Tash: really ah? how come i didnt know!
Jackie: -_____________________________________________-

I finally spoke to Tatum after god knows how long,and our conversations still go the same way.

"you really don't like her.."
"no she's ok la, just that in primary school she used to tell me she was a magician. And i believed her"


PART 2 of the conversation went like

"gets me so annoyed and jealous"
"OMGGGGG DITTO"

"how did he even get her?good catch. I mean DAMN good catch"

Hahaha, will see that tiny lady after her A's.

To one of the nicest old lady i've met, and her family


and for now, to nes...
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

Just 16 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 16 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behavior

I'm done with my N levels, and classified under 'problem child' for the next 6 months.. and I don't think i can handle it.
I'm going to have a baby brother in like.. 4 or 5 months which I find so totally weird becase i'm so used to being the only one..and well if i might say, very spoilt. I'm going to be an older sister! Though I may not be the best example..
But this kid probably won't need a good example because by the time he's old enough to disobey his parents i will be, (sadly) in my 30s. hahahaha

Among my 2 best friends (Ruth&Jac)

I am the cryer,
I am also the white legs,
Not to mention the one who 'fell into the drain'
The one who tells long stories..

I am ruth's other half...............................tit
and I am jackie's Asparagus, and Deer meet.

And there's so many things that i want to be emberrased of, but I can't because they know me inside out and every little detail of how i felt at that moment when my..misfortunes happened. hahaha

I can't wait for ruth to get back so we 3 can chill and talk about the olddd times

My N's are on now, and i feel so deprived of a normal life. Normally I am not home this much,normally I do not study this much. NORMALLY, Saturday's are my "off" days..

sacrifices sacrifices....

By next tuesday however, I will be as free as a bird! and i can finally start singing!

 

"DONT WORRY ABOUT A THING,CAUSE EVERYTHING LITTLE THING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT!" :]

I've never been more content, My face is a big red beating heart! Never knew I could love this much
Hold on to this

"only an infinite sadness that wrenches my heart and little by little and devours it" -Melissa P.

Love, love is a verb 
Love is a doing word 
Fearless on my breath 
Gentle impulsion 
Shakes me, makes me lighter 

Sunday I ate so  much and puked so much, 

had a high fever..&on Wednesday's  my Social Studies exam.

But I couldn't be more ready, i've memorized 

the whole book, i'm like a walking propaganda now. (haha!)

Can you believe this, out of the whole year

my body decides to breakdown 2 days before my exam!

I am also jinxed.

Lately Coldplay's been keeping me grounded,

 as well as yoga breathing techniques.

I felt my life with both my hands

I could feel it go down, bittersweet i could taste in my mouth

silver lining in the cloud, and i wish i could work it out 

close enough for you to taste, but you just can't touch

I got my first B for Maths in a long time, and it feels way too good. I am striving high, aiming for A2 next. Recently i've studying quite a bit. I feel so at ease..like how i feel after yoga. (yes, apparently i am into all this spiritual heeling)

Just like Lana's need to photoshop her pictures, my need is to study..And dragging my boyfriend to my house to watch movies from my stepdad's collection of 53634572 dvds. Then finishing one whole box of popcorn and rolling around feeling fat.Now that's my idea of a friday night

So me and Nes are walking around and i'm looking for a hat to buy and we see this light brown one and i'm like.....

Tash: what'd you think?

Nes: I dont know man...Sarah's got something like thing this and it's pink but fucking ugly

SILENCE

 

Tash: uh..babe, that was my hat 

Nes: oh shit. sorry.

I had a pretty great weekend, Tricia's birthday, free Singfest (with a bunch of my friends that crashed it) with uncountable free vouchers from Stefan working at the drinks. For me, One Republic owned it. They are amazing live! Also, Ryan Ross from Panic! was too damn hot in his 70's wear, and all of them performing on those 'magic carpets' But coming back from Singfest..was my Social Studies exam. Which i wasted my time studying because the question i did in the end was the chapter that i didnt study..looking forward to 2 months time! Lucky for me, i get to sleep in tomorrow because i don't have school!

I have got to start sleeping earlier everyday. Girls who use the computer, drink alcohol or..(something else but i forgot) put on weight faster! 

My prelims are in a few days, and i havent started at all. I feel guilty..usually im so motivated to do well. I feel like im going to be burning midnight oil. I've never used that term before..sounds funny that i just did. 

Ok. i will concentrate on my studies. peace V