Today was weird, after listening to stories about other people..i feel normal. I mean, i know my life style isn't and all but at least i act normal you know. How insensitive can one get...is the real question. How can friends do this to each other? I know there's much i have to learn about life..but really, insensitivity is not the way to go. But who am i right? Just your average nobody...

TOMORROW, we are going to the pondok. Or, planning too..even if it just turns out to be me, Nes and Faiz. Or me, Faiz and Jackie, it's ok. Bcuz, what we've learnt is three's a crowd! RIGHT GUYZ?!?!?............

Before i sleep, i will declare that..i will not intoxicate myself next week. This week, too much. It's an OVERLOAD.

This is a crazy crazzy week, im catching up with so many people..it's good. I'm happy i'm doing this. This is one good week..

I've got Alcohol, Friends, Fun all in one week.

enjoy this.Everything you hear about me, is everything i am not.

I realised that i kinda put christmas songs up a little too early.....save it for a week or two more. I shall do, a proper and decent post. One of a recent update about my life. My holiday life.

What seemed like such a boring one,.....hold on. A bug just fell in my drink hahahahaha ew.

Okay, back to where i was before i was inturrupted. What seemed like such a boring one, turned out not to be. It is in fact, quite exciting, though not as crazy as the last. It is fun in it's own little way. My boyfriend's 17th birthday was good. So good that i rolled in almost close to 3 and flopped onto my bed remembering that i left my oh-so-cheap camera at Nes's place. Other then that, the rain has brought many good things. ONE OF WHICH IS THE WEATHER, that i absolutely thank god for because Singapore is a living hell. NO, Literally.

I can't wait for my best friend to get her ass down here to celebrate the holidays with me. I love her, and i miss her. I mention too much about how excited i am to see her that even my boyfriend's excited too. We shall relive Jayuire's birthday.........or not. hahahaha. I look forward to tomorrow the day day day day day after that too. My life could only go down hill from here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATUM. YOU BITCH for telling me about your little 'get together' late. see you soon folks! happy holz

Next year, i will be back. BIGGER, BETTER, & THRICE THRICE THRICE THE SIZE. ;)

Wanna get yourself like so ready for christmas? My favourite's Coldplay's version of "have yourself a merry little christmas"



Sorry for not posting much, i've been pretty busy here and there, all over the place.. Just enjoy the holiday! read a book or two, and enjoy the rain. Goodnight everyone!

I could be, may be, might be, most probably be, the worst girlfriend. ever..

Is there a manual or something out there?

Happy birthday baby, i love love love you :)

I'm in the new house and it smells new, and i'm ready to live here(i think)! I checked the main door, easy and ready to sneak out..hahaha IM KIDDING IM KIDDING..jeez

This morning, at about 5.30 in the morning i was leaving nes's place, and waiting for a cab..the rain was so heavy. Despite the heavy rain, and no cabs available, my boyfriend still kept his humour laughing and joking about everything to do with the rain. Gfkingaeirugakegnawiuhgilrgne, this is why i love him! It's like almost 12 in the morning, and i've only had and hour and forty five minutes of sleep..waiting for the boxes to arrive is taking forever..and sitting in this room filled with furniture but none of my personal belongings...the more i think about it, the more i feel that this doesn't feel like home..


"You feel the sweet breath of time.."

Good afternoon! You know what i realised, i always misplace my phone in my room. I just like totally forget where i put it.. And i also realised that i always glue things together. (thank god for UHU glue..) haha

What i've also realised is how people are so selfish, immature, insensitive..stony, and rude. What the hell is wrong with you guys?

and sarah..don't let them get in your damn way. Just keep smiling! Make them wonder why you're still smiling... because you. don't. care.

Now that i'm done with that, and glueing my ring back together(all nic's fault..) i will leave and meet Nes, Nique and Leon. Off i go........

So, i thought i was the only one that felt well...broken up. Turn's out not.

Matt: Is it me..or are these holidays kind of dull..

Tash: yes..it is. do. not. remind. me.

Matt: Last year was damn shiok right? even june was better..

Tash: i used to walk out of the house with an aim, with something to do, a goal to achieve. now i get out of my house like an idiot, nothing to do, no one to meet

Matt: like last year we go out nothing to do also still fun because we enjoy each other's company

Tash: i'm like "call me ok?" and they're like "ok!" but they never do

Matt: at least we still cool..even if we laze about at home..

Tash: yeah..like a melting ice cube.(what?!?!)

hahahahahaha my feelings.

Then, we came up with something else.


Tash: maybe, it's just us! maybe they are ditching us..maybe they dont want our company..
Matt: yea, maybe now they're all secretly out and going like "haha silly matthew and tash,let them rot at home"
Tash: oh no..its really starting to get to me. Matt, i think they dislike us.
Matt: everything is a conspiracy against us
Tash: but i respect them..i can mingle with my own crowd..
Matt: lets make our own group of friends, only cool people

i really dont like the holidays now.

I've been packing! Leaving this house forever and ever and ever..There's something about packing that means final. Can't wait to move into the new place, bigger, better and well..it's very..brown. NOT TO MENTION MY ROOM. I hate it. IT IS A DISASTER. IT IS A MESS. However, we also know that i work well in messes..i'm just going to learn to live with it. It's just a stupid room. MY STUPID ROOM. It's starting to annoy me. It's like when you're talking, and someone won't stop inturrupting you. Yes, that kindf annoying. Makes me wanna burn the house down..maybe i should get some tips from Anthony..haha shuppad i'm starting to sound like a lunatic..

My holidays..my holidays..my holidays. It's weird, sometimes i have a good time sometimes i don't. WHYYYYYYYYYYY? I wait so long for it to arrive..then it finally does. And i don't have anything to do..Maybe i have too little friends. Maybe i should start drinking coffee at a cafe more. Wasting my time like that makes more sense don't you think..instead of straying around town like a lost dog..I hate town.


i'm just so..speachless seeing that all of Britney's music in a new cd is on sex
meow. but anyway, here's one for all you britney fans ;)

Don't worry, me and faiz secretly like this one too ;)


I’m Mrs. "Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Oh My God, That Britney’s Shameless!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Extra! Extra! This Just In!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "she’s too big, now she’s too thin"
(You want a piece of me?)

Holiday's by the way have been picking up the pace, lovely and i love that the o's are ending soon. FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not for me......for all the candidates. Anyway, enjoy the song. I think it's got funky lyrics it's like "YOU GO BRITNEY". Yes..if you're wondering..i'm still her fan.

I met the past yester...last night leaving Bosco's awsome party. So he was..uh, gross infact. Don't get his style. So it went for Ah Beng to wanna be Goth, Ah Beng again then Working-clothes-dress-up dude.

What happened to Goth, not his forte? hahahaha. Okay, i'm feeling meanish but yeah, you knowwwwwwwww when you don't like someone.....lol

So the main part zabout this post was that Bosco had a pretty good party on Halloween.

One word: TEQUILA.

most beautiful melancholic music i've heard in some time



breathe songs in my head, slow arrow flies & burning..and the trouble we possess.
wants to feel you shake and shooting..he will be our leader

Holiday's in, and school's out...yeah..like the pass few days it's been real good. Meeting the rest, drinking i'm so getting in the mood ok! like fo' serial yo

"I haven't panicked this much since my last exam.."
Today we had a test during cathecism (I know..i know.. like a test right!?). So this test was going to actually determine if we are going to get confirmed or not. It was an open book/BIBLE test and they asked such like "what's a parable?" LIKE WHAT'S A F'KIN PARABLE?! So, moving on....the class was a wreck. And did i mention we need to get a 75% pass? Yeah...neat. It's alright, i put all my trust in the bible and just let it do the thinking for me. I wrote what i FELT was right and reasonble. Such "A parable is made of a meaningful paragraph of a certian object or person" Okay, so sue me. I didn't know what the hell i was scribbling..we had a time limit. I however, finished the second-last in class (thank god for Bob who was last..) So yeah..that's how my Sunday morning went down..in flames i might add.

And the strokes and the kooks should come down to singapore. daaaaaaaaaaamn chigga/nigga! (spent too much time with sarah, jackie and dav) lol

Disco Friends


Well, just finding out that I had A1 for english, and not retaining, I am going to play god in Sims. Have a good evening all! Soon you will see me and my cigerattes, having a ball of a time. hahaha tata

i am inlove with-


and you give yourself away. and you give and give and give...

What a shame we all became..such fragile broken things.

I'm sick. (How many times have i said that this year?) So i've got the flu...but on a lighter note, my holiday starts in a few days! Though mine kinda pretty much started cause since the exams ended i've only been to school like what...2 hours? And that also means that I will be moving into the new house in about 25 days. I resent that house too much...it's alright. Pain comes with time and i hate time.

This holiday..i'm gonna make it different. It's going to be way better than last year. I DONT CARE HOW but it's going to happen. Hell no, am i going to sit at home and rot. No, that is not me. I am...whatever you want me to be. Just not a boring stay at home kinda person. It's going to be my alcohol and me. My friends and me. My boyfriend and me. My food and me. (if i have the cash) lol..

ok so, forget me. i am just a tiny voice in your head. (jump, jump! no one loves you...they dont even know you exsist. just end your life) hahaha maybe i should stop reading sad sadistic books. Wait. Don't second that.......

Good evening! Okay, so everything isn't so bad after all. I'm going out regularly..
my mum said twice a week..but i hope by mid november things'll change i mean things always change, you know.

You know, i have a guilty confession. I secretly like Britney Spears. I mean yeah, so she screwed up her life big time..but she's still the same old music maker. Just like 10 kg heavier. hahaha
Still, i am a faithful fan of hers. I will get her CD when it is released in Singapore. You must be like "give me your 20bucks! i'd do better things with it.." yeah well, i don't know...I still like britney. It's more of pity actually. hahahaha

whatever, this is pretty stupid. it's not like i know her anyway. hahaha
chaoZZZXXZZZ

my life is a big black box + nes (that makes life a whole lot easier)!

hey, do you know that halloween is in 3 weeks time?
i hope you all have some sort of party to go for! and with every shot you take, say "To Tasssh!!!!!"

ps, i love youuuuuuuuu

THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMMING IN 2 WEEKS TIMEyesyesyesyesyes! I feel the rush to study hard.. i feel it.We're in the middle of the exam period and Accounts is in 2 days..and that's just paper 1. Am i ready for it? ...........................No, not even close. It is all in the hands of luck..which i seem to lack alot. hahaha, so instead i blame it on the people! Why do they do this to us? I have come to the conclusion that they enjoy seeing us suffer.

And..because i need some serious entertainment in my life. I have decided to take fencing up with my cousin. hahaha my mum was like "isnt that for boys?!" but against all odds, it's my fencing and me. Alright off i go into the real world of books and brains.

goodbyeeeeeeee