"This was never the way I planned..not my intention. I got so brave, drink in hand...lost my discretion"






Friday was Time Out with the girls..fun, and Ruth was with us(in spirit) haha
"OK GUYS, CLOSE YOUR EYES AND LETS THINK ABOUT RUTH FOR A MOMENT..SHE IS WITH US IN SPIRIT"
We had a few vomitting cases..*ahem* We will probably all be doing this again some time soon.

I can't wait to spend my holidays with my boyfriend.GOD please make 2 weeks fly

my favourite part from I Kissed A Girl:
Us girls we are so magical
Soft skin, red lips, so kissable
Hard to resist so touchable
Too good to deny it
Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

90 years, you have lived your life to the fullest. And finally you get to be with the people you love up there..
your house is filled with pictures of the family and i never realised how much you loved us until now
as you got older, you started calling me "lucrisha" but i will remember that name always because only you call me
thanks for the memories the stories you always told me when i went over (that i always enjoyed)
you always worried about all of us but now it is your time to rest.
thank you for all that you've done

and when they sell your house a small part of me will die because that is your house..the house that we all grew up in
i will miss everything that came along with you.

so here's to you, beautiful and strong. I will always look up to.
and even though i never said it out loud..I love you

I AM FALLING INLOVE ALL OVER AGAIN

"only if the rest of my body could be like my butt cheeks..perky and solid"

"did you just smack your ass?"

"yes"

hahahahaha i love you

NES.

Things i've been up to lately....

1. Addicted to Misery Signal's Anchor
2. Tomorrow I intend on cutting my hair (I've never been one to dwell on bad haircuts, cause well, it grows back. all the time.)
3. HAVEN'T FORGOTTEN RUTH'S BIRTHDAY that's comming this Saturday (haven't forgotten you tit! mention you most of the time when i'm talking to Nes)
4. My family went to Bali over this long weekend..and 'forgot' to call me :((
5. I'm slowly losing my motivation to study because well all this talk about the year ending in 2012 is making me think "why waste my time?"
6. I managed to keep 50 bucks till the weekend, and i just blew it on food and cigarettes....
7. Lately been extreamly addicted to peanut butter (On bread, without butter. Love the sticky dry rich feeling/taste in my mouth)
8. recently discovered my hate for public transport because of all the morons that keep stepping on my foot 'accidentally'
9. also discovered my addiction to shopping online...and off. haha
10. Have been trying to motivate my boyfriend to do his work.. (but i am a hypocrite because i am not motivated myself)

& If I don't make it online on saturday, HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY RUTH! WISH YOU WERE HERE, AND WE ALL LOVE YOU VERY MUCH :]

from the pplz of singapore V

"When you see something from afar, you develop a fantasy. But when you see it up close, 9 times out of 10,  you wish you hadn't."

I am amazed by this movie..some might put it down but it is just beautiful. Wicker Park.

Monday Coldplay was amazing! will definately go again if they come back..though this is their 3rd time already.haha
I absolutely loved it when they played Fix You, and everyone was singing and tht stars and the lights..i would GIVE to rewind and go back to monday.perfect....So the second semester of school just begun and its gonna be pretty hectic B cuz its one semester away from prelim(which is super early this year..like July?) So i need to work my ass off, quit being so damn lazy and stop spending Tuesday nights watching back to back episodes of 90210..and Lipstick jungle. haha

If anything. ANYTHING, i would just ask for more time..with me and nes so busy, i dont know :(((

"tears stream down your face, i promise you i will learn from your mistakes. tears stream down your face and I will try to fix you"

HI RUTH, SORRY I TOOK SO LONG

 and I read through the email, very very helpful!

Coldplay tomorrowwwww omg omg omg yay cannot wait! But school's starting tomorrow too..I am beyond ready. Don't even get me started on my damn undone holiday homework. haha Hopefully I didnt fail my English Common Test! Tomorrow we will see..ok time for sleep 

Chris Martin, here i come!!! V

if my life is for rent, and i dont learn to buy it
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truely mine

The week's holiday has started for me, and I only want to spend it with this one person.

So this tuesday is 2 years: if love is a drug I want to OD

You know i've been thinking, when I do die, i want to be cremated and my urn will be nicely decorated by Nes and placed inside my home..haha I figured I would wanna be around the ones I love all the time. haha i get bored sometimes ok I've been motivated to study!!! My boyfriend gave me a verbal lashing yesterday on how I waste my time caring about unimportant things and people. and I AGREE. So from today onwards till the rest of my life, it won't be ALL about me, and i will look up to mother theresa because she was all about giving and i need to be "all about giving" because being a bitch takes too much time and skill!!!!! i am having zombie cravings. shit. time to watch zombie vids on youtube. V

FOR RUTH:  Hi tit, i've been trying to upload pictures of Elijah for you but blogger's being a real bitch right now so i'll try tomorrow. CALL ME xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxo

"I don't expect anything"

hi! the baby is out, he is tiny. He is Elijah...and he also shocks me. He has like golden hair, dark green eyes and he is so fair. Totally not what I expected..haha My stepdad is now watching Golden Girls hahaha i am going to die of laughter.

ok i  have a rough day tomorrow! I will post more pictures of the baby for you soon, ruth

missing you

Ok, i have am having a massive panic attack! my mum is going to deliver to a baby boy tomorrow and i am getting twisty funny feelings in my stomach. like knots..like the kind before you get your national results kind of feeling..the feeling...is taking over...
the feeling of being alone for the past 16 years of my life. the i-can't-have-a-sibling feeling not now, not ever.
my mum's voice is jumpy! she is nervous too. but no, its only(ever) always been me and her. i could burst into a serious outrage of tears now i am not ready. give me another 9 months please? all i need is another 9 months

sqeeezing all my thoughts into the back of my brain(my hand is literally shaking)..actually i can see me and my stepdad actually being very panicky when the moment arrives. I can totally picture my mum screaming in the background telling us to "GET TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL!" and me and gavin running to the car and doing our checks before we drive to the hospital

Me: "ok, mum's bag?"
Gavin: "check."
"mum's toiletries?"
"check"
"baby's new born clothes?"
"check"
"mum's massage thingy that she uses?"
"check"
"mum's.....ok i think we're all set...OMG WHERE IS MUM?"

so we run up to the house and see she's on the couch screaming "I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU HOW COULD YA'LL FORGET ME!!!!"

omg. nightmare. worst than dreaming of zombies.

I'm thinking..and i know now i'd never chose anything to be any different. I am content and will never lose
have a good last-day-of-Feb day, and always remember the moon (always)

We're in too deep, and I won't fall out 

I am in love and i always will be,

with you

I miss my friends, 

this whole ride is impossible to make through without you guys

call me.

'We all carry these things,
Inside that no one else can see.
They hold us down like anchors.
They drown us out at sea.
I look up to the sky.
There may be nothing there to see.
But if I don't believe in him,
Why would he believe in me?' -Chelsea smile.

Truely one of the most addictive songs, ever

Coldplay is not to be missed! I will fight tooth and nail for this one. Even if I have to go alone, I will be contented :)
(I missed them twice, I won't miss them again) ...although I know I will be eating grass by the end of March..




"I used to roll the dice, feel the fear in my enemies eyes"
c.a.n.n.o.t c.o.n.t.a.i.n e.x.c.i.t.e.n.e.s.s !.!.!

Saturday parkway drive was just mind blowing

Bodies swaying, sweat dripping, fist pumping, and people screaming..yeah you can imagine how it went. haha I missed it all somehow, 2006

After which we headed back to Big Ear to hangout. I had a lot of fun..me and trish cracking ourselves up with 'silent laughter' and me nes & keith singing along to some Underoath, shaun telling me to comb my hair with a fork. haha And with ALL that, i came back to Physics homework, Social studies test, and Biology test results...tah im sleepy. goodnight!

"The greatest thing to ever learn is just to love, and be loved in return"- Moulin Rouge

A number of tragic events happened to be over the week!

My school gave me a warning letter for Jay Walking...&

 I didnt quite understand because i did it so that i wouldnt be late for school. 

Then later in that day my hand grazed, YES GRAZED my Principles butt.

And i almost passed when she said..

Principle: DID YOU JUST.....? :O

Me: Oh my goodness, i am so sorry! I was in a rush!

Principle: its alright i'll just take it as a compliment!

Thank goodness she's a good sport..I could've been sent to detention.

So, ALSO i got back my math test and got 0/19

i couldnt even get 1 mark. What a horrible way to start on the first test of the year!

I've been eating quite funny..5 pm for lunch, 10pm for dinner..haha

Parkway Drive this saturday, like a few weeks after me and nes will be going to watch JASON MRAZZZZ  :D i love you.

 

ok! good week ahead! V

Hi! Today i watched 13 going on 30 "thirty, flirty&thriving..."

I'm glad i didn't got to Daryl's party last night,

I ended up staying in with Nes and we had a movie marathon!

2009 had been extra-eemly busy for me! I HATE SECONDARY LIFESTYLE

plus, everyone in my school's narrow minded..

"tattoo's are bad..short skirts are bad.."

they just want us to be Nun's so badly..

but not my forte, really..

me? In a nun outfit..and all that jazz?

Not today, not tomorrow. Never in my lifetime

The feeling is back again! I just wanna smack her real hard on the head!

FIGHT FOR WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN