12.08am! do you realise what this means?
for those of you who don't, this means that,
its the last day of the year. hahahahaha
(no, i haven't been drinking)

i'm so ready to usher in the new year!
good bye 2006! goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.
resolutions resolutions, i have came up with 3.

ONE: BECOME A VEGETARIAN.
(but im still gonna eat steak, meat lovers pizza.. ect, ect.)
ok so thats not a vegetarian but i'll make an acception.

TWO: BE IN THE TOP 10 STUDENTS IN CLASS.

THREE: FALL IN LOVE.
(i know, that it might not happen, no, but i want it too)

so there you go! this time, i intend to stick to it.
i hope everyone has a great new years eve.
go do whatever you want. like what operah said,
"do something you'd never thought you would ever do,
and while you're doing it, enjoy every moment of it."
well.. its not exactly what she said. but close enough!
so, happy new year in advance!

Ps; ANTHONY IS STILL ALIVE!!!!

heyheyheyyyyyyyyyy homies!

today was rather productive. i actually did something!
(i know, i know. we'll save the celebration for later)
however, tonight is a rather boring one. cause..
1) its 2am, and im still not tired.
2) i've got not many people to keep me company tonight.
3) ...

there's only two.
felt good to talk to Shay today.
after all, he is gonna be my cousin.
he's pretty funny. hahaha.
i'll bring him around singapore,
althought there's not much to see..
just the good parts.

i hate that i have to live another day till new years eve!
arghhhhhhhhhh common 30th, pass faster
this is killing meeeeeeeeeeeeee. rawr

'I'm so full of love, It deeply sickens me'

I've spent the past 2 days at home, doing nothing!
As pathatic as it seems.. it really is.
But then, after all i am actually grounded.
Still that doesn't mean if someone called
Me out, i wouldn't join them, hell yeah i would!
It's just that no one's asked me to join them. yet.

It's so boring at home i could shit my pants.
It's like im looking at my phone just...
Waiting for any idiot to call me. seriously.
Actually, i wanted to go for sushi today.
Hahah, but my bestfriend had to go for dinner.
So, i guess.. not today then.

I've been watching tv the whole day,
I know the whole of P'diddy's life!
So let me just elaborate on that.
Not long after his Hollywood career started,
That poor man was accused of shooting someone.
So then he went to court and stuff,
And thankfully, he was announced innocent.
But then his gf dumbed him,
Cause everyone looked down on him and shit.
Then his buisness starts failing.
Not long after, he picks him self up,
And he get's a role in a movie and everyone see's
That he's not too bad and then slowly...
His career geta back on track and then he does
"Making The Band" and slowly, becomes famous.
And now, he's new album is out.
You can catch it in HMV or any music shop.

hahahahah. go on, laugh at me.

Why did i come here?
These humans suck.
I'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely.
I'm not trying to sound insincere,
But the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads,
"Wish you were here"
How i wish i could dissapear.

dig this.
Faiz - split his chin when trying to do a stunt.
result: failed miserably.

Tasha + Nique - Screw up lie.
result: grounded.

Nes - Breaking house rulezzz
result: grounded.

Anthony - Operation, and in hospital now.
result: might, (and could possibly) miss new years eve.

Keith - (lets just say.. its comming for him)
result: feeling very busted. for breaking girls heart.

hahahaha. i knowwww, what a group.
i can't help but laugh myself.
but no one's stoping me on new years eve.
im just gonna run out of the house if i have too.
hahahaha. okok. take care ya'll!
enjoy every last bit of your holiday left!

im addicted to words and faces.

Have yourself a merry little christmas,
Let your heart be light,
From now on, our troubles will be out of sight.

good evening! its now 1.30 in the morning.
and ive had a rather good christmas eve, & day.
i've celebrated it with all the people i'd plan too.
headed to jackie's place today. ate like a pig.
Tash: what's that?
Jackie: oh, pork ribs. (puts one on my plate)
Tash: nono, i "need" another one.

and then.. later on in the train.

Anthony: What?! Wonga's the only dog i can go out with!
Tash: No la, there's Bren, Ben, and Jeff? That's more dogs then you expected.

i was grouned today. (again?!?!) yeah, yeah. i know.
its not something i wanted, but there wasnt any cabs!
aaaah. its all shirley's fault! everything is.
(me and nes came up with this.
if there was anything wrong in our lives, it was all shirley's fault)

we went to bugis today, met the usuals.
then after that had some fun. (you know what im talking about.)
and headed home. hahaha. that's when i got grounded!
jesus christ. so for now. im just gonna wait till anthony calls me.
or i'll wait till 3 to call anthony and ask him what he want to do.
cause seriouslyyyyy im real bored. bye.

JUST LIKE WE DO..

merry christmas! its about, 2.10 in the morning.
i had a great christmas eve. there was a party at nique's.
and all our friends came. ok not all..
we're not 'all' without nes, keith and shirley.

we've all kind of decided on a formal dinner.
not sure when but, it will definately happen.
tomorrow will be a hectic day of visiting and eating.
dressing up is gonna be tiring.
for now, stay jolly.

"Not even i will tell.."

"Just know, I won't tell. Maybe.. just maybe"



wow. this is getting exciting. i can't wait for next year!
hahaha. im gonna miss this holidays though.
this.. drinking almost every alternate days,
sneaking out to ben's no-parents home.
following anthony to his hospital visits.
traveling to pasir panjang just for a great night!
(which will still happen every saturday next year)
being on the phone till 10 in the morning.
and of course the great 7.30pm get-ups,
then going out the whold night. hahaha.

which of cours led to a grounding.
happened last night, when i got back at 12.30.
but what the hell! it wasn't my first time,
she just happened to catch me yesterday.
but its okay, i had fun, and i still will.
so i cant wait for next year. i hope anthony will be okay.
:D

You are one of God's mistakes
You crying, tragic waste of skin
I'm well aware of how it aches
And you still won't let me in
Though I don't like you anymore
You lying, trying waste of space

a very good afternoon! it still hasn't rained.
i stayed up the whole night. and then well
watched The Exorcism: The Heretic.
i had Nes on the other line. hahaha.
me and him were just trying to irritate Ben.
we typed the same things, on msn.
and wrote it the same time. and everything was
just so.. random. it was something like..
"queer as folk" so, in the end he just blocked us.
we actually had something else to say. damnnn
it's alright, we always have tonight. :)

I think it's the weather that's making me feel this way.
But i like it. this whole.. serenity.
And on the other side of me,
1) need to eat [x]
2) i want it to rain
3) need to laugh [x]

Well, go ahead and lie to me
You could say anything
Small talk will be just fine
Your voice is everything
We owe it to love
And it all depends on you

If I had to I would put myself right beside you
So let me ask would you like that?
Try to find out what makes you tick
As I lie down Sore and sick

hola! okok today was like rainy day.
it just kept raining and raining, non-stop.
(duh, if i said raining and raining, obviously it was nonstop -_-)

okayyy WHAT-EVERRRRRR.
i spent like the whole day with my 3 cousins.
on the way home, we saw this girl in the train.
it was the whole typical ahlian, i-am-goth kinda look.
she had hair all over her face! jesus christ.
maybe it's cool to have your hair that way.
then i must be so out of fashion hahahaha
today we did a little shopping,
i guess i'll save my money for another rainy day.

maybe later i'll just kinda like head to ben's place.
see what they're all up too. probably some alcohol,
and card tricks. or some computer games and dvd's.
ok its 11.28pm. i think i'll sleep for abit.
take care you guys!

this is the only photo he has in his computer

the celebration that we had yesterday, was a blast.
first, it all a started at Ben's pool side
then we upgraded to his house after his parents left.
they went for a holiday, and will be back on the 21st.
so as for now, ben's home is like.. a hostel.
everyone doesnt go home. just stays at his place.

so about yesterday, we upgraded to ben's place at.. 5am.
straight away we took out some of his drinks, and ours.
Nes and Anthony shared and bought vodka for me.
thanks thanks thanks. i love the them
actually, the drinking already started about 2am at the poolside.
so by 5am, we all were high but still felt that it wasn't enough.
so the whole celebration and drinking ended at 11am.
and well, lets just say, we really trashed his house.

now, its 6.52am and im at anthony's place.
in about an hour (im guessing) we'll be going to the hospital.
anthony's might go for some operation,
so im just gonna accompany him. i should start charging him soon.
maybe bout... $7 an hour. hahahaha
he always wants me to follow him here and there.

as for now, im fighting to stay awake while anthony is
really restless rolling around his bed -_-
im hungry and going to see what food he has
tata for nowwwww

happy birthday to me


Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut-outs.
Speak no feeling, no I don't believe you.
You don't care a bit, you don't care a bit.

ooo nes, check it outtttt

If you keep asking me,

I'll melt away in the summer air.

It won't hurt half as much

And i'll beg for you to stop it now.

ok, its 3.30am.

im still thinking about meeting

anthony, wonga, shiv and faizal.

should i? but im sick.

what the heell, i think i'll just go.

is not like i'll die if i go. hahaha

hey, ok! i actually did go out in the end.
at 3am Faizal was online then he was like..
"hey tash, are you bored? lets go out."
then i was like.. "alamakkkk. now you tell me."
but you know, it was a rather boring night..
so i was like "okok, meet you in 20mins"

soooooo i was on the phone with ben,
while waiting for this idiot to come.
next thing i know, anthony's cycling towards me.
and he says,
"HELLO! my bike is damn cool" so i laugh and laugh..
"stole it?"
"two actually.. i needed it to travel. from bedok to tamp"
so we laughed and laughed. then from far,
i see faizal and his friend cycling.
as they get closer, me and anthony realise that
the other guy is carrying some kinda.. ball.
and then oh wait no.. its a green ball.
hey, noooooo it isn't, its a watermelon!

then i look into the bicycle, there are rambutans.
hahaha. me and anthony laugh and laugh again.
then faizal and his friend tells us they stole it
from some shop that left thier fruits out.
so we just hang around tampines the whole time,
eating some rambutans and laughing under blocks.

this is, by far, the best holiday yet.

time: 2.42 am
weather: windy
mood: tired, curious

wow, its Dec 10th. soon, my birthday's coming.
not much of a big deal, really.
i was suppose to have a party,
but i got quite lazy after that and called it off.
sorry guys!

however, quite a few people want to celebrate it.
so they've decided to have a little party.
i dont really mind. after all, i dont need to pay at all.

oooooooo. think about it everyone.. 2007!
i really want it too come fast but,
a little of me wants it to take a longggggg time.
2006 was an exciting year. i did everything i wanted too.
met great people, ate great good, heard good music.
i absolutely dont regret anything i did.
dont get me wrong, im really sad that ruth's going.
but i think she'll enjoy herself there, i dont know?
we'll see. as for now, i'll wait patiently for 2007.

:D

good afternoon! so far, everything is running smoothly.

hahaha. like today, i got up earlier then i expected.

and later there's a gig at my school.

i guess i'll go, since Gabriel's band is playing!

GO CARACAL!!!!!!!!!

today was all about cucumbers.

its not like the whole day's over yet,

but i helped my grandmother cook.

all i did was help my grandmother cut cucumbers.

she was so feirce about how they had to look a certain way.

but wth? its cucumbers, they all look the same!

so maybe they didnt matter to me, but it did to her.

its ok, i enjoyed cooking anyway.

thanks grandma!

ok, and one more thing.

girls have too really stop whining about the guys they like,

it just makes it sound worst then it actually already is.

hi, today i didn't really feel like having conversations.

everything was so irritating.

there was nothing i did today that was very interesting either.

last night wasn't that fantastic.

i think it was a waste of my bloody time,

don't get me wrong though,

there was good times.

just that i could have spent my time

doing something more worthit.

i travelled to the west side for nothing!

and wasted $20.

and when it was in the morning,

i went to meet my friend for breakfast.

this is making me angry.

tomorrow i've decided to go out alone.

everyone is irritating.

i can't stand it.

PS; im sorry this entry isn't funny.

i'm just not in the mood.

It's so wrong, but it feels so right.

Jackie is absolutely right! we need more time.
for the holidays, for christmas for everything.
i mean, you go out everyday and the next thing you know,
christmas is coming, then new years eve,
then the whole new year and school. this is too much!
i can't take the presure!
i want to enjoy this, make it last....

how about last night? it was too normal.
i went to gas haus with a group of people.
and we kinda just hung out, listening to good songs
like practically the whole day.. from 3pm-11pm.
some guy dropped his specs and his lenses came out
while he was moshing, and mark picked it up for him.
hahaahah. what a stupid fool.

hey everyone! its 12.51 am and im really hungry.
the only way out of that, is maggee mee. god, i hate that stuff.
so anyway. nique is helping me out with the noodles.

like.. earlier ago. i wanted to watch a DVD.
THE DEPARTED. so i was like..
"common, lets go outside to watch it."
nique: " omg.. i need to carry my wires into the fish room.."
and then she just started mumbling. hahaha.
it was hilarious i tell you!

and yesterday, we stayed up the whole night.
5 of my friends. jamming ended at about 12am.
and we were all the way at kallang! so you already guessed,
no trains, no busses. hahaha.
we stood there for and hour just thinking. THINKING.
so we 5 came up with a plan..
hijack bicycles. hahaha. not so smart, but was kind of
the only thing we could do. hahaha.
oh, did i mention we had only $10? well, thats all we had.

in the end, we just decided to flag a cab, and beg the uncle to
bring us to Pasir Panjang, cause thats where we wanted to go.
hahaha. the whole night was about having fun.
wont forget it.

Bren: just now i really sucked at daytona man.
Tash: yeah, honestly, you really sucked.
Bren: cause it wasn't a motorcycle la, if not i would
be speeding. give me a motorcycle, and i'll show you
some real hong kong speeding.

hahahahahaha.
okok, if you were me,
you'd be laughing till you can't breathe.