Earlier this evening, I heard this nerd telling his two friends that were fighting.. "New year, new beggining, new start." And it just kept ringging in my head. New year, new beginning, new start. New year, new beginning, new start. New year, new beginning, new start. Yeap, just like chuck palahniuk said in his book.. 'And the secret is, this will hurt less and less each time until you can't feel a thing. Trust me on this.' I love how this sinks in. I love it.

Because i feel like all about quotes today

My heart goes out to Heath Ledger. You very sexy sexy dead man.
I am feeling annoyed, with this one person. This one. ONE. How i manage to control my feelings..it is such a wonder.
Sleepy is kicking in, the Sandman has arrived! Goodnight all! think about it.. "New year, new beginning, new start."
I love Nesssssss gah i love you

Teri's party..was fun. Very fun..it was kinda like a club(though) divide the people in the club by..5 and that's what you get. But I would gladly say,that with that little people..i had fun. Didn't really feel like intoxicating myself but somehow Stefan. (you know stefan.......&and Sarah) managed to convince me that Drinking at a non-alcoholic party was alright. With that, i got myself a drink. A little tipsy..but i made it home that night. And Boy, does being an alcoholic drain you out. Physically and in $$$$ wise.
But not to worry my friends, i did not eat grass the whole day! :D

Finally my family actually lived out "family day"-on a Sunday after a long time. Like i had family members (whom i've never met before) come to my house to play Bingo. Yes..you read it right. Bingo. And it wasnt sooooooo bad, i actually made 36 dollars. But my mum and dad call it a "family success" so i divided it by 3. And i made $12. Ok, gotta run. My mum's calling in 'sick'. Gotta run..and check the matter out.

CHOW CHOW

(pictures from Teri's party will be out real soon.Just give jackie a while to upload them)

wrapping your ams around me effortlessly, your whole weight against me, your mouth waiting and your eyes like stars. We could be anybody..but we aren't

waffletown trips, mid-day sleeps, 10 months..i wanna feel like this forever

I don't know how to put it..but it is weird, different and difficult to say it in such...
but it will not make as much sense as it did the last time. But i like it because it hurts, i want it to hurt

Funny how me and jayuire read eachother..just 2 days ago it was a little like this
Jayuire: "She said there's no alcohol at her party!"
me: "No alcohol?"
Jayuire: "ya..unless we....."
Me: "yes, i know what you're thinking"

"A party without alcohol is like cheesecake without cheese..sushi without seaweed..creampuff without cream"
ok, you have to listen to this

I rolled in at 8am today (quietly) and i still credit myself for taking a bath..with how tired i was. Success! Everyone was at jackie's party, so it made it pretty enjoyable(except the journey to changi was terrible)..and after which sitting at Changi, laughing our asses off..a windy night, a good time. With mark going on about "When i was in P1. I was in class 1Silver. And my Form teacher was Misses Tan. When i was in P2. My class was 2Red. My formteacher was Mdm Tan. When i was in P3 we shifted school from frankel to OlPS there, I had a Buddy....and i was in class 3.." Ok, the buddy part and i was laughing uncontrolably. I slept right through till..now. I could sleep sommore. But we all know if i do, tonight i won't be able to sleep, and i'll be a walking zombie on Monday morning. My body is aching all over! ahahaha. I keep picturing what life will be like in 5 years time..it's like i'm too excited or something.

Ruth is going on tuesday..big Sydney life. I will definately be visiting. But i will be missing the gossips, late nights (driving around carparks), making music, making some maggee mee..sitting at mc cafe, everything this is a year(full of changes)

Only close friends(no ex boyfriends allowed)

8th January..and i'm actually holding up pretty good. Except for the fact that your school mates, or leaders could be such fucktards sometimes..i take it all in. On a lighter note, I have an interesting story today that might light up your day!

SO, lets take it back to Saturday. I bought this beautiful, if not enticing fish. A fighting fish..i thought i needed a *personal friend. So for one night i had good company. I talked to it, laughed with it..it was very enlightening let me tell you. It kept swimming to the top, so i being the very concerned pet owner, thought it was hungry threw in a little fish food. But no, it didn't budge. So i thought it needed a little 'fresh air'..but after many minutes, it still kept swimming to the top. I tried to feed it again and it did, yet again, reject the fish food. Already half panicking, I ringed up Nes "My fish doesn't want to eat! What if it dies?" and his reply was "It won't die lah. Feed it tomorrow, it's probably not hugry now." Satisfied with the advice, i left it alone..in the guess room. (Didn't wanna leave it in my room cause i was sleeping with the aircon on, thought that it might freeze to death) Next morning, i get up, anticipating to feed this fish of mine, which i named Clock. Walking towards the little fishy, i realied there was no fishy swimming..Panicking, yet again I open the lid. There i see my dear Clock floating on the surface of the water, drained of it's colour not its beautiful terqouise anymore..it's dead. D-E-A-D. I tear once or twce and i feel like Murderer! It's still a mystery..how Clock died. CANT be the water..can't be that it starved to death. I don't think she just wanted to come to my house to die you know. Oh well...such is life right?

A rush of blood up to the head..school has been fun. But how can i really tell cause it's only been the 2nd day of school, and it's weird that Nes doesnt go to school anymore..He won't call me and night to tell me what happened in his school that was BIG, and what he did after school and all so it's weird. But 2008 is a year of changes. I, as you have already known, HATE changes..for the better..or worse. Besides "changes" i'm down with the flu. My immune system is not strong. I am disappointed. How could it fail on me? It's only the 3rd day of the year! 13 days. Ruth will leave, and Jackie's birthday will come..i want time to fly, But enjoy it at the same time.

I know i'm holding on to tight..but give me some time, and i'll do it right

After last night, I AM MOTIVATED TO HAVE A BETTER YEAR THIS TIME! I had so much fun. (Except 1-2.30 am)
I have accepted that people will change, despite the things we try to do..but that's all good. Cause they will always be the same people you know, even if you haven't seen them in the longest time. So, today is the last day of my school holiday. Worryworryworry..how most of us will spend the last day of our holiday is at my house. Am i ready for school? NO. But keith was right..sec 4 will be interesting!

Plus, i am 16 already! (kinda. you know like 2008..16. geddit?)
Tune in for the next post on how school went. Really really bad..or good. I'm leaning on to the more really really bad. But we'll see. After all, life is like a box of chocolate..full of suprises.