This is a case of "what tash doesn't know can't hurt her"

Time to get drunk! Happy new year.

December 22. 9 more days until this year ends. And honestly, I can't wait. 2009 has been a crazy ass ride with wonderful ups and terrible downs. If anything, I would like to take away only the good memories. The one's that included me having a functional 4 piece family, the parts of the year when I thought "This is it. This is the happiest I will ever be." I've learnt that you can fall in love with the same person more than once. That people change people. People change because of love, drugs, music.
That death REALLY means the end...that your family will never be the same again without this one person. I don't know what I truely feel about this year coming to an end. Not sadness or happiness. Maybe just relief. Because all the terrible things that happened can be put away forever. And the new year means new beginnings. That despite everything, you know you can always start again.


GAHHHH i hate being emo.hahaha ok so Merry Christmas to everyone in advance!

lovelove

get me out of here
get me out of here
get me out of here
would you get me out of here?

Somewhere between the penance & the patience
You drift with every word they say
Somewhere between the penance & the patience
I think we've lost our way

aaaaah, my birthday wish my birthday wish my birthday wish

I have edited this post 3 times since I first wrote it. All about the same thing. This will be the last time I am going to edit.
I had a great morning, so great I don't want to sleep! You trust me. So I need to trust you on this one. I hope this doesn't end with disappointment screaming a big "FUCK YOU" in my face. Slowly but surely, I will let go. So come what may! Brave heart GEDEGAH!

My Birthday is coming and I only have one 1 wish. I know the chances of this one are slim..but I hope someday someone, anyone will prove me wrong. Until then, I am holding on.

Wonderbored says: theres my self esteem like a bag of innocent potatoes and there you are
Wonderbored says: busting it up like a pinata


if i laugh anymore, i just might get a heart attack and die.hahaha

keep your heart close to the ground.

"Well this side of, mortality is
Scaring, me, to death. To death."

In my head is your face, when you said "I can't lose you".

Later today I will be staying over at nes's! FINALLY it's been too long since we got up at 3pm together with chuckie inbetween. *yes yes yes*

So, today I discovered how much I hate Sundays. It's the laziest day of the week, and somehow I always end up doing something alone. Like tonight. Everyone has a family dinner/things with friends/goodbye parties ect... And in the words of keith: Can't you stay at home for one night?....See the truth is, I can't. In fact HOME is the where I feel out of place. I love coming home when everyone's a sleep. I come home to no akwardness. Today I woke up at 5, my house noisy as hell filled with people..they are all still here actually. I can take this. I can take this. I can take this.

I'm going out to watch a movie now.

Bye.

i feel like -

James Jean