"When you see something from afar, you develop a fantasy. But when you see it up close, 9 times out of 10,  you wish you hadn't."

I am amazed by this movie..some might put it down but it is just beautiful. Wicker Park.

Monday Coldplay was amazing! will definately go again if they come back..though this is their 3rd time already.haha
I absolutely loved it when they played Fix You, and everyone was singing and tht stars and the lights..i would GIVE to rewind and go back to monday.perfect....So the second semester of school just begun and its gonna be pretty hectic B cuz its one semester away from prelim(which is super early this year..like July?) So i need to work my ass off, quit being so damn lazy and stop spending Tuesday nights watching back to back episodes of 90210..and Lipstick jungle. haha

If anything. ANYTHING, i would just ask for more time..with me and nes so busy, i dont know :(((

"tears stream down your face, i promise you i will learn from your mistakes. tears stream down your face and I will try to fix you"

HI RUTH, SORRY I TOOK SO LONG

 and I read through the email, very very helpful!

Coldplay tomorrowwwww omg omg omg yay cannot wait! But school's starting tomorrow too..I am beyond ready. Don't even get me started on my damn undone holiday homework. haha Hopefully I didnt fail my English Common Test! Tomorrow we will see..ok time for sleep 

Chris Martin, here i come!!! V

if my life is for rent, and i dont learn to buy it
well i deserve nothing more than i get
cause nothing i have is truely mine

The week's holiday has started for me, and I only want to spend it with this one person.

So this tuesday is 2 years: if love is a drug I want to OD

You know i've been thinking, when I do die, i want to be cremated and my urn will be nicely decorated by Nes and placed inside my home..haha I figured I would wanna be around the ones I love all the time. haha i get bored sometimes ok I've been motivated to study!!! My boyfriend gave me a verbal lashing yesterday on how I waste my time caring about unimportant things and people. and I AGREE. So from today onwards till the rest of my life, it won't be ALL about me, and i will look up to mother theresa because she was all about giving and i need to be "all about giving" because being a bitch takes too much time and skill!!!!! i am having zombie cravings. shit. time to watch zombie vids on youtube. V

FOR RUTH:  Hi tit, i've been trying to upload pictures of Elijah for you but blogger's being a real bitch right now so i'll try tomorrow. CALL ME xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxo

"I don't expect anything"

hi! the baby is out, he is tiny. He is Elijah...and he also shocks me. He has like golden hair, dark green eyes and he is so fair. Totally not what I expected..haha My stepdad is now watching Golden Girls hahaha i am going to die of laughter.

ok i  have a rough day tomorrow! I will post more pictures of the baby for you soon, ruth

missing you

Ok, i have am having a massive panic attack! my mum is going to deliver to a baby boy tomorrow and i am getting twisty funny feelings in my stomach. like knots..like the kind before you get your national results kind of feeling..the feeling...is taking over...
the feeling of being alone for the past 16 years of my life. the i-can't-have-a-sibling feeling not now, not ever.
my mum's voice is jumpy! she is nervous too. but no, its only(ever) always been me and her. i could burst into a serious outrage of tears now i am not ready. give me another 9 months please? all i need is another 9 months

sqeeezing all my thoughts into the back of my brain(my hand is literally shaking)..actually i can see me and my stepdad actually being very panicky when the moment arrives. I can totally picture my mum screaming in the background telling us to "GET TO THE FUCKING HOSPITAL!" and me and gavin running to the car and doing our checks before we drive to the hospital

Me: "ok, mum's bag?"
Gavin: "check."
"mum's toiletries?"
"check"
"baby's new born clothes?"
"check"
"mum's massage thingy that she uses?"
"check"
"mum's.....ok i think we're all set...OMG WHERE IS MUM?"

so we run up to the house and see she's on the couch screaming "I'LL FUCKING KILL YOU HOW COULD YA'LL FORGET ME!!!!"

omg. nightmare. worst than dreaming of zombies.