islands.

lately ive been thinking about taking my own life, then maybe all this madness will end. but we never truly know whats on the other side. how can jesus or god or whoever that is up there tell us that "it's easy" or all we have to do is "pray". i've lost everything.. and no god or person can tell me that "it will be alright" how can i be so fucked up....and get so lost i dont even know where i am or who i am or what i stand for anymore. when i walk around with the heaviest of hearts. its like i am in a constant daze..if i ever do find the strength, its not because i never loved you. it's because i loved you too god damn much to even comprehend, i didnt know what to do with myself.

been so self destructive lately, and bringing people down along with me.
they should just stay away