you know they say you 'don't know what you got till it's gone'? I dont really think its true...


2007, I wouldn't say it has been terrific. Just some parts that i've wanted to pause, rewind & fast forward. resolutions..resolutions..maybe just 1: Don't be grounded as much as 2007. hahaha, good one huh?
Yesterday Nes was on the phone singing songs from people's blogs..he is so mean. But i almost teared while laughing. haha
Tonight nes's comming over for dinner with my family then after that we're off to meet everyone to usher in the new year..words cant explain how excited i am..i just hope you all have a really really good new year! with alot of love..tash

Just like Gabrielle said: I wanna end 2007 the "right" way

So when are you gonna realise those are not your wrongs to right?
Have another life. Have another drink.

moments ago, i was on the line with Nique and Jackie..
Nique: Where's jackie? She answered his call?
Tash: She did! She covered the hole!
Nique: WALAUOOOOOOOOOOOO
Tash: We are missing out on the most important part! (theothercall)

I also used the words "Off Tha Hook" while talking to nique..hahaha
Yeah and nes calls me "shorty" ironic......

Everyone's turning into MONSTERS. Thank god, me and my boyfriend are having the perfect relationship! :D

its friday! IT'S FRIDAY! (welcome to the good life)
it means my friends, in 3 days, it will be the 31st! By hook or my crook i will have a blast..
It ALSO mean that in 5 days, i will be back in school looking like ... this -_________- with my sidekicks, Lana and Jayuire.
READY TO TAKE ON ANYTHING......tash :)

"my mother told me, that you're never lonely when you're laughing all the time.."

I have to get this out of my system. But believe me, i say this with a heavy heart..how and why, was there by any chance, that Christmas was not as good as i thought it would be? Even New years eve might be as terrible..and this is why i pray for tollerance. If you had a good one, i'm happy for you. Really, i say that from the bottom of my heart..

tash

The phone lines are all jammed up... so for those of you who get this, or don't, Merry Christmas! My scab is still here and the pie wasn't So bad..admittingly, pretty good.And not letting school get to me has been very successful. Actually, i'm more excited for new years eve,2008. 2007 has been really really good for me, and everything was unexpected. Hopefully 2008 will be the same and if i hope i do well for N levels..oh please, if not well a 9 is good enough. hahaha, see im not so difficult..i don't ask for much. Thinking about it..i never do. Ok, the wine is getting to me, off i go! Happy Holidays! xxxxxxxo

hhhhhhhi, last night was so fantastically fun.. i know how to drive! :D Just around the carpark..hahaha
Then i stayed at Ruth's place, and we took forever to come up with one verse. But we did it pretty good!
Alright today i'm heading out alone. Gonna get the last minute presents..if you're like me, don't you feel that Christmas this tuesday is a little too fast? I'm starting to feel nervous..

I am now 15. Feels good, not much..just like ruth said "Join the club!"
I am no different from the other 15 year olds..we smoke we drink we club we partaaaay like there's no tmr! \m/!!!!!!!!!
FUCK YOU. I was so fucking kidding okay. I don't dance..cause God didn't really tallent me in that area of life.
But, i like to watch people dance.... i envy them. hahahaha, ok. This is getting weird.

Me and my friend were suppose to take Hip Hop classes once(which was like a really really long time ago). Oh my god, can you just imagine me? The so eager student ever waiting and anticipating to dance..No, no..i'd rather be the cool "come what may" one in life. Sit back, relax and let the good times role with some skill to dance....or none. hahaha. With this, i am ready to take on the 15 year old life..and i think "one year has fucking flown by!" so where's the bottle of Chivas? I'm so ready to shot it, and let it intoxicate me! RUN THROUGH MY VIENS! BE ALL HARDCOREEEEEE

......no not really. Just buldoze the life out of me. Please.
you will fall inlove with her, and this song

"It gains the more it gives"

Good evening! In a few moments, i will be meeting my boyfriend and we'll be heading to Tracy's birthday..and mine. We're like celebrating hers..into mine. I know my friends are gonna get me piss drunk. But, i think i can handle that. Really..i mean what's a few shots of vodka..right? Hahahaha.. I need to do something new, something without alcohol. I'll think about that on Monday.
After they intoxicate me again. But it will be fun, a whole bunch of girls laughing and drinking the whole night, How could that not be fun? I await the comming of Ruthydoots at 3am tonight! :D what could be a better present than that. No, honestly?

I'll make this fast before this laptop dies on me and the next time you'll hear from me is in like 5 years, or smth.
As i predicted, Sarah did come late..at like 3:10 thank god, i only had to wait for like..10 minutes. I WAS EARLY, and trust me.
I am never early..unless the meeting time changed, and therefore i am early. Hahaha

I need Hope, i am Hopeless..and also being freaked out of my witz that school in starting in exactly 19 days and i am not ready for 2008 although (YES I KNOW, YOU PEOPLE SAY N'LEVELS IS A BREEZE) i know i must be ready for N LEVELS. Just shoot me. Next thing i know..it'll be 12 midnight and we'll be shouting "MERRY CHRISTMAS!" then the next midnight i know it's "HAPPY NEW YEAR!" and the next 2 days following that, is the first day of school in 2008. I know, i know, i think too much but who are we kidding? This is me we're talking about! The one that always flips the fastest.. Ok. I will stick to this motto till school starts.

Never talk about it. Don't read about it. If possible, don't think about it.
See? Easy. Now i'll never have to worry about that.......for the next 19 days.
I am a real jokes time.

GOODMORNING!oijsireueiurhieurngwlkiu34hoq3iurhaiuhe

I am meeting Sarah this afternoon and i already know what we will both be up to. Hahaha
It will be fun and she says that we are meeting at 2:30, now we all know how she is ALWAYS fashionably late.......
So i will be comming at 3pm. Hopeful that she doesnt turn up at 4 or something!



wait there was a story i wanted to tell you guys, but then it got lost in my head. I will spend a few moments trying to recall what it was will picking out today's clothes...Goodbye, and let go. ;)

The rain is so heavy right now, i love it
Something about the rain that says "this is your life, so be it"

Good morning! If i don't get ready soon, Jayuire is going to rip my head apart so off i go. Need to do some christmas shopping..
but i think we already forgot the meaning of christmas. All we money minded, fun loving freaks..

YOU LOVE THIS SONG. (its only real nice when you blast it)


CHRISTMAS IS COMING! that means school's starting soon..that also means new years will be comming fast too. There will be no resolutions for me, i give up on resolutions! Okay..maybe to be a better person, but isn't everyone's "to be a better person?"
You can be a better person in many ways..Cheating..Good in bed..Good in studies, hahaha oh, you name it ;)

Alright, off i go! Have a good night,enjoy the holiday season! How many times a year do we get THIS MUCH RAIN?

"and you don't have a clue..you don't know what you do to me.."

Moments ago, me and my boyfriend were talking about potential fight topics..which is funny, cause everything we tried to argue about was pretty lame.hahaha why do i love nes so much? my supersmall-wanna put you in my pocket boyfriend
(this 4/4 beat, i'm in time with you. this 4/4 beat, i would die for you..)

.........KIDDING! :D chill babe, needa get my fighting fish btw
i love you...you are my earth my sun the air i beathe! MY MOON..MY MOUNTAIN WATER....
you are so gonna laugh when you read this babe. haha

I am turning 15 in 2 weeks. Funny how 2 years ago seems like yesterday..all the stupid and childish things we did. I am so shy to talk about any of it today. So is Ruth, Faiz, Jackie, Nique, Nell...and the list goes on and on.. haha.
One year you think pink's the best colour in the world, and the next you just hate it.
One year you think Hot Gay Guys are the shit, and the next you think "what the fuck was i thinking?" hahahaha...yep, you got it.
Meet the tash..2 years ago. It's ok, you dont have to feel bad about laughing at all..i'll probably laugh along too! haha

Apart from becomming old really fast, like i stayed over at mikey's last night. O.M.Goodness, the last time we did that was like ages ago..last night was nostalgic. Us giggling till the wee hours of the morning, then craving for good desert and after that, Squeezing on mikey's bed. hahaha. I'm glad we girls did that! & not forgetting going out with Lisa and nique today. WOW.. i'm having like girl outings all the time. This is fun..wait till my birthday. It will be an all girls affair. yea you read it right. ALL GIRLS.

It's okay my friends, i'll give you time to take it all in. :)

Shalom Faiz! He'll be back in a few days..he is the best laughing stock. We didn't go to the pondok. :( where's the clan you know..the good old days of walking to the god damn pondok, sweating like a dog rolling down the little hills and laughing our asses off cause we're too high to know what the fuck we're doing then realising that we've all got a fucking curfew then rushing back in a cab..or something a train. High in the train, laughing and accidentally knocking everyone, annoying humans and almost getting bashed up cause of that. Ahhhhh, those were the days you know..life's like that. All good things come to an end, you know...and the saying goes.

This song will comfort me..

Today was weird, after listening to stories about other people..i feel normal. I mean, i know my life style isn't and all but at least i act normal you know. How insensitive can one get...is the real question. How can friends do this to each other? I know there's much i have to learn about life..but really, insensitivity is not the way to go. But who am i right? Just your average nobody...

TOMORROW, we are going to the pondok. Or, planning too..even if it just turns out to be me, Nes and Faiz. Or me, Faiz and Jackie, it's ok. Bcuz, what we've learnt is three's a crowd! RIGHT GUYZ?!?!?............

Before i sleep, i will declare that..i will not intoxicate myself next week. This week, too much. It's an OVERLOAD.

This is a crazy crazzy week, im catching up with so many people..it's good. I'm happy i'm doing this. This is one good week..

I've got Alcohol, Friends, Fun all in one week.

enjoy this.Everything you hear about me, is everything i am not.

I realised that i kinda put christmas songs up a little too early.....save it for a week or two more. I shall do, a proper and decent post. One of a recent update about my life. My holiday life.

What seemed like such a boring one,.....hold on. A bug just fell in my drink hahahahaha ew.

Okay, back to where i was before i was inturrupted. What seemed like such a boring one, turned out not to be. It is in fact, quite exciting, though not as crazy as the last. It is fun in it's own little way. My boyfriend's 17th birthday was good. So good that i rolled in almost close to 3 and flopped onto my bed remembering that i left my oh-so-cheap camera at Nes's place. Other then that, the rain has brought many good things. ONE OF WHICH IS THE WEATHER, that i absolutely thank god for because Singapore is a living hell. NO, Literally.

I can't wait for my best friend to get her ass down here to celebrate the holidays with me. I love her, and i miss her. I mention too much about how excited i am to see her that even my boyfriend's excited too. We shall relive Jayuire's birthday.........or not. hahahaha. I look forward to tomorrow the day day day day day after that too. My life could only go down hill from here.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TATUM. YOU BITCH for telling me about your little 'get together' late. see you soon folks! happy holz

Next year, i will be back. BIGGER, BETTER, & THRICE THRICE THRICE THE SIZE. ;)

Wanna get yourself like so ready for christmas? My favourite's Coldplay's version of "have yourself a merry little christmas"



Sorry for not posting much, i've been pretty busy here and there, all over the place.. Just enjoy the holiday! read a book or two, and enjoy the rain. Goodnight everyone!

I could be, may be, might be, most probably be, the worst girlfriend. ever..

Is there a manual or something out there?

Happy birthday baby, i love love love you :)

I'm in the new house and it smells new, and i'm ready to live here(i think)! I checked the main door, easy and ready to sneak out..hahaha IM KIDDING IM KIDDING..jeez

This morning, at about 5.30 in the morning i was leaving nes's place, and waiting for a cab..the rain was so heavy. Despite the heavy rain, and no cabs available, my boyfriend still kept his humour laughing and joking about everything to do with the rain. Gfkingaeirugakegnawiuhgilrgne, this is why i love him! It's like almost 12 in the morning, and i've only had and hour and forty five minutes of sleep..waiting for the boxes to arrive is taking forever..and sitting in this room filled with furniture but none of my personal belongings...the more i think about it, the more i feel that this doesn't feel like home..


"You feel the sweet breath of time.."

Good afternoon! You know what i realised, i always misplace my phone in my room. I just like totally forget where i put it.. And i also realised that i always glue things together. (thank god for UHU glue..) haha

What i've also realised is how people are so selfish, immature, insensitive..stony, and rude. What the hell is wrong with you guys?

and sarah..don't let them get in your damn way. Just keep smiling! Make them wonder why you're still smiling... because you. don't. care.

Now that i'm done with that, and glueing my ring back together(all nic's fault..) i will leave and meet Nes, Nique and Leon. Off i go........

So, i thought i was the only one that felt well...broken up. Turn's out not.

Matt: Is it me..or are these holidays kind of dull..

Tash: yes..it is. do. not. remind. me.

Matt: Last year was damn shiok right? even june was better..

Tash: i used to walk out of the house with an aim, with something to do, a goal to achieve. now i get out of my house like an idiot, nothing to do, no one to meet

Matt: like last year we go out nothing to do also still fun because we enjoy each other's company

Tash: i'm like "call me ok?" and they're like "ok!" but they never do

Matt: at least we still cool..even if we laze about at home..

Tash: yeah..like a melting ice cube.(what?!?!)

hahahahahaha my feelings.

Then, we came up with something else.


Tash: maybe, it's just us! maybe they are ditching us..maybe they dont want our company..
Matt: yea, maybe now they're all secretly out and going like "haha silly matthew and tash,let them rot at home"
Tash: oh no..its really starting to get to me. Matt, i think they dislike us.
Matt: everything is a conspiracy against us
Tash: but i respect them..i can mingle with my own crowd..
Matt: lets make our own group of friends, only cool people

i really dont like the holidays now.

I've been packing! Leaving this house forever and ever and ever..There's something about packing that means final. Can't wait to move into the new place, bigger, better and well..it's very..brown. NOT TO MENTION MY ROOM. I hate it. IT IS A DISASTER. IT IS A MESS. However, we also know that i work well in messes..i'm just going to learn to live with it. It's just a stupid room. MY STUPID ROOM. It's starting to annoy me. It's like when you're talking, and someone won't stop inturrupting you. Yes, that kindf annoying. Makes me wanna burn the house down..maybe i should get some tips from Anthony..haha shuppad i'm starting to sound like a lunatic..

My holidays..my holidays..my holidays. It's weird, sometimes i have a good time sometimes i don't. WHYYYYYYYYYYY? I wait so long for it to arrive..then it finally does. And i don't have anything to do..Maybe i have too little friends. Maybe i should start drinking coffee at a cafe more. Wasting my time like that makes more sense don't you think..instead of straying around town like a lost dog..I hate town.


i'm just so..speachless seeing that all of Britney's music in a new cd is on sex
meow. but anyway, here's one for all you britney fans ;)

Don't worry, me and faiz secretly like this one too ;)


I’m Mrs. "Lifestyles Of The Rich & Famous"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Oh My God, That Britney’s Shameless!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "Extra! Extra! This Just In!"
(You want a piece of me?)
I’m Mrs. "she’s too big, now she’s too thin"
(You want a piece of me?)

Holiday's by the way have been picking up the pace, lovely and i love that the o's are ending soon. FREEDOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! not for me......for all the candidates. Anyway, enjoy the song. I think it's got funky lyrics it's like "YOU GO BRITNEY". Yes..if you're wondering..i'm still her fan.

I met the past yester...last night leaving Bosco's awsome party. So he was..uh, gross infact. Don't get his style. So it went for Ah Beng to wanna be Goth, Ah Beng again then Working-clothes-dress-up dude.

What happened to Goth, not his forte? hahahaha. Okay, i'm feeling meanish but yeah, you knowwwwwwwww when you don't like someone.....lol

So the main part zabout this post was that Bosco had a pretty good party on Halloween.

One word: TEQUILA.

most beautiful melancholic music i've heard in some time



breathe songs in my head, slow arrow flies & burning..and the trouble we possess.
wants to feel you shake and shooting..he will be our leader

Holiday's in, and school's out...yeah..like the pass few days it's been real good. Meeting the rest, drinking i'm so getting in the mood ok! like fo' serial yo

"I haven't panicked this much since my last exam.."
Today we had a test during cathecism (I know..i know.. like a test right!?). So this test was going to actually determine if we are going to get confirmed or not. It was an open book/BIBLE test and they asked such like "what's a parable?" LIKE WHAT'S A F'KIN PARABLE?! So, moving on....the class was a wreck. And did i mention we need to get a 75% pass? Yeah...neat. It's alright, i put all my trust in the bible and just let it do the thinking for me. I wrote what i FELT was right and reasonble. Such "A parable is made of a meaningful paragraph of a certian object or person" Okay, so sue me. I didn't know what the hell i was scribbling..we had a time limit. I however, finished the second-last in class (thank god for Bob who was last..) So yeah..that's how my Sunday morning went down..in flames i might add.

And the strokes and the kooks should come down to singapore. daaaaaaaaaaamn chigga/nigga! (spent too much time with sarah, jackie and dav) lol

Disco Friends


Well, just finding out that I had A1 for english, and not retaining, I am going to play god in Sims. Have a good evening all! Soon you will see me and my cigerattes, having a ball of a time. hahaha tata

i am inlove with-


and you give yourself away. and you give and give and give...

What a shame we all became..such fragile broken things.

I'm sick. (How many times have i said that this year?) So i've got the flu...but on a lighter note, my holiday starts in a few days! Though mine kinda pretty much started cause since the exams ended i've only been to school like what...2 hours? And that also means that I will be moving into the new house in about 25 days. I resent that house too much...it's alright. Pain comes with time and i hate time.

This holiday..i'm gonna make it different. It's going to be way better than last year. I DONT CARE HOW but it's going to happen. Hell no, am i going to sit at home and rot. No, that is not me. I am...whatever you want me to be. Just not a boring stay at home kinda person. It's going to be my alcohol and me. My friends and me. My boyfriend and me. My food and me. (if i have the cash) lol..

ok so, forget me. i am just a tiny voice in your head. (jump, jump! no one loves you...they dont even know you exsist. just end your life) hahaha maybe i should stop reading sad sadistic books. Wait. Don't second that.......

Good evening! Okay, so everything isn't so bad after all. I'm going out regularly..
my mum said twice a week..but i hope by mid november things'll change i mean things always change, you know.

You know, i have a guilty confession. I secretly like Britney Spears. I mean yeah, so she screwed up her life big time..but she's still the same old music maker. Just like 10 kg heavier. hahaha
Still, i am a faithful fan of hers. I will get her CD when it is released in Singapore. You must be like "give me your 20bucks! i'd do better things with it.." yeah well, i don't know...I still like britney. It's more of pity actually. hahahaha

whatever, this is pretty stupid. it's not like i know her anyway. hahaha
chaoZZZXXZZZ

my life is a big black box + nes (that makes life a whole lot easier)!

hey, do you know that halloween is in 3 weeks time?
i hope you all have some sort of party to go for! and with every shot you take, say "To Tasssh!!!!!"

ps, i love youuuuuuuuu

THE HOLIDAYS ARE COMMING IN 2 WEEKS TIMEyesyesyesyesyes! I feel the rush to study hard.. i feel it.We're in the middle of the exam period and Accounts is in 2 days..and that's just paper 1. Am i ready for it? ...........................No, not even close. It is all in the hands of luck..which i seem to lack alot. hahaha, so instead i blame it on the people! Why do they do this to us? I have come to the conclusion that they enjoy seeing us suffer.

And..because i need some serious entertainment in my life. I have decided to take fencing up with my cousin. hahaha my mum was like "isnt that for boys?!" but against all odds, it's my fencing and me. Alright off i go into the real world of books and brains.

goodbyeeeeeeee

From where I come from, you don't exist alex

"sometimes i wonder why im so full of this endless rythms"

The week is flying by, days are passing so fast. I, on the other hand have not really been studying..
This is disspointing, i promised myself i'd study hard and well for the end of years
There's just this one thing running around at the back of my head.. It won't stop running..& i can't stop it

I've decided to see fortune tellers, I need to find out what'll happen in the future
Sitting back and waiting is making me so impatient

sencondhand sex


Hello! I'm back and taking calls again. You know, my gorgeous long dry locks? I bravely chopped it off on Sunday. While everyone was aiming for the long, flowy and uh.. beautiful hair, i decided to get rid of mine. No..i'm not bald.

I am so unlucky..and always get ALL the bad things happening to be at once. I just gotta learn how to deal with it..and take it like a ma..woman. I crave for indian food now, and i successfully managed to convince my mum to drive there and get some. So off i go, have a good week ahead. I'll just try to study..haha

"I won't regret saying this.."


I can't think of anything to blog about. But I love Tegan & Sara...
I need to study. I need inspiration. I need imagination. I need luck.
But no use whining about somethingSSS i won't and can't have.
So here, now i'll go back to my lying-on-bed-listening-to-music-life.
this is waaaaaaay too pa-the-tic

as we see through life,
you will see that there is so much more that we don't understand
and the only thing we really know
is things dont always go the way we planned

listen to it's a hit by we are the scientists, it's a good song!

can't put into words
but beautiful, and explosions

Everything is automatic..

So today, we celebrated Ben's belated birthday.
We forgot the most important thing, THE CAKE.
It's alright, we all sat around in a circle, drank our beers and smoked.
It was pretty fun Cause we played games "I have never ever......." haha fun.

Tomorrow, i will attend a kids party. Don't worry Nes, Jackie, Leon & Nique. We are all in this together. Good old games and food and a party only for 3 hours. I'm hoping it'll be fun. My eye lids are heavy and i shall go to bed now, a long tiring day awaits me. Goodnight world

It feels much better to know that you won't feel a thing
It feels much better to know that you won't feel a thing
It feels much better to know that you won't feel a thing

I've been looking for Chuch Palahniuk's book since i got back from Aussie
So today i was at the busstop waiting for the bus to come (which took ages by the way)
Then i see this boy, he's holding a book and it says "Invisible Monsters by Chuck Palahniuk"
I, by the way, have been looking for that since......... ages ago
And so i get ready to walk up to the boy to ask him where he got it from
Just then, his bus comes as i'm walking to him half way, he boards the bus,
the bus door closes and it leaves. So i'm standing there, and everyone saw that.
Why am i so unlucky! maybe i need lucky charms. Like a Lohan fish or something.
Hokey, i'm going to take a nap now. Goodbye! and don't worry guys, the holidays are comming...

Nique: Oh, I wanna watch Evan Almighty!
Tash: I caught that already..it's pretty boring.

Really, not long later....(after the trailer for Evan Almighty ended)

Tash: Oh, i watched it. It's not bad.
Nique: But i thought you said it was boring?
Tash: Oh yeah, it was boring!

Yeah so, sometimes conversing with her is pretty hard cause of my really short term memory. It's alright, i've accepted this gift from god.
Later on everyone's coming to my house and it's time to play pictionary and cluedo,
But first, i'm gonna alter afew of my clothes, and then get my camera some batteries.
See yaaaaaaa

Today when i got back, i had a little suprise for my dog
I got her wet doggie food. She loved it, and i loved seeing her happy.
I love to fatten her up once in a while you know. For a dog, she's waaaaaaay too skinny.

Now i'm listening to Gary Jules, Mad World.
Look it up, it's a great song to chill out too. Makes you think...
And soon, i'm going to get dressed and leave for a movie with nique.
I've no idea how i managed to talk my mum into it, but i'm glad she let me go with this whole grounding thing.
I felt a sense of achievement today, i made my dog happy.
It's time to make me happy now, as i go on with that i should get my hair washed cause the rain got it today
Off i will go, enjoy your windy friday night!

"i cling to this..."

People say: seek it in time
I've been thinking about time lately,& i hate it

I've also been thinking about the end of the year, and how much fun i'll have
I've also been thinking about the new years eve
Lately, i've been doing alot of thinking because of my free time

I want to do something about time
Stop feeling lazy, and be whisked away
hahaha, too much.

ROUND TWO

Yeah! this is the second weekend of my grounding. It's starting to get to me like the last time. I'm becomming mad. Today i was not allowed out, and tomorrow i asked everyone to come over to my place to hang out.
I begged and begged, and said "don't busted me laaaa plz" Hopefully they give me some pity and spend at least 2 hours at my place playing Pictionary or Cluedo. Sad life? yes, i agree too.

Who do you love, me or the thought of me?

"..All The Go Inbetweens"

I am becomming irritated with the camera that's passed down to me.
It's about 3 times or 4, or could possibly be 5 times my age.
So where you think i might get the batteries from?! I mean, don't mind the film.
Other than the great annoyance from this old camera, i've not been in school for 2 days.
Simply because i have "sore eyes". First it was suppose to be a big joke in school for me to leave early. But than the doctor told me i really had sore eyes. Ha ha ha. I really laughed there and then in the clinic. So i walked out and i told my mum that i actually didn't have sore eyes.
But she didn't believe me, and insisted i was sick.. So here i am now at home, searching for something to do. I got up early and even volunteered to do the dishes. but cleeeearly it's 11.24 in the morning, and the only person that would be eating is.... me.

Should i be a couch potato, flipping through the channels
or a complete pig, sleeping the whole day
or also a pig..but eating instead. i need motivation...
Please god, answer my cry.

Good evening! it's such a rainy night
and there's no doubt im going to crash after this
Ok, so here's what happened during the week.
Singfest was so gooood. Bands like the academy is,
the noisettes and cyndi lauper and gym class heros..
ok, i might as well just put all the bands that played.
They were good, and Singfest will be back next year!
I'll definately be there of course.

But Since my mum left during the weekend, i thought i could...
have a little fun. so i left in the middle of the night and she
came back and i wasnt there at 530 in the morning. haha
so you guessed right, i am now grounded!
it's ok, i'll live. i'll live.
ok, so you all have a good week ahead, i'll just be spending
my time bumming around and listening to sad songs
goodbyezzzzz. don't miss me

Dad, me and nique

i had terribly good weekend
i am ready to go through monday and tuesday, & i think (bring it on!)
i'm having nostalgic feelings
it doesn't hurt. it doesn't hurt

can't wait for wednesday till i can see sugar ray, nes and every single body
now i will drown myself in The Fire Fight. have a goodnight.

out of me

Good evening again! I am ready to share with you guys a story. You're definately gonna laugh, so hang in there. you need a great imagination to get this one.really

It was yesterday in school and it was raining heavily, like the best weather to sleep in. & uh..play in the rain. So me and alexdsondra decided to run in the rain and jump about here and there. When i came back in, i failed to realise that there was a BIG puddle infront of me, and with my already wet shoes, i stepped onto the puddle. Oh yes. It happened. That's when it happened. I slipped, in the most unglam way you could ever imagine and there was some whole matrix thing again on for about.. 1.2 seconds. And BANG i fell. I fell on my bum. I didn't care if it hurt i wanted to run for cover cause thats when i realised the whole bloody canteen saw my circus act. My friends from the other side of the canteen were laughing so hard and screaming "I SAW THAT! HAHAHAHAHA" i could swear i heard them! so i went down a legend that day. the girl that fell in the rain, or after being in the rain onto the slippery wet canteen floor. ha ha very funny
but i wanted to dissapear.

i hope i made your day
one more time! :)

the best song to listen to on a rainy day i swear


good evening. i just hate how time is passing by so slowly
i'm waiting for the weekend, next weekend..
and 13 weekends more to pass

everyday just makes me think about the next day
and the next day and the next
i hate this cycle
plus, adding on to my much stressed mind, i find out i have a corn on my foot!
i just want to amputate my foot. really

i m numb (for now,)

I just got back from Nes's place. Ruth, myself and David stayed over.
Before that was Jayuire's party and we all drank. I am a terrible friend and i suck at keeping promises.
But i try, i try.. they should have a guide book on how to be a really good friend.

I got home, so stoned, and slept at 5pm all the way to 8.30
Nuh-uh, not good enough. I will crash soon again and skip school tomorrow
Say goodbye to ruth..and i'll see my baby again next year, i hope.

dont wait, act now
this amazing offer won't last long
it's the only chance to save the path we're on
i know there are more exciting things to talk about
and in time we'll sort it out.

Hello! I will just quickly explain what happened over my weekend
1) alcohol on saturday night
2) overslept on sunday
3) missed wedding on sunday

It's tuesday and i why do i feel like days are taking agessss to pass? But. on a lighter note, my mother will be gone over the next weekend, (again) so i will then abuse my curfew and one million other things. haha
Sarah's birthday was good, i had funn and i made new friends and i was entertained by "YO MOMMA" jokes
so i was always confused..is it "your momma?" or "yo momma"?


Now i will take a shower the express way, get out in 5 minutes, blow my hair if i feel like it
and buy some stupid accounts text books. goodbye all! have a pleasent week!

Some people say money can't buy happiness, I think other wise
My horoscope also said that i can't take restrictions. True.
And that i only think outside the box, and that i always look at the bigger picture of life. True

Money can buy happiness. Think about those times you bought your favourite shirt from Topshop or something.
Of course you were happy! Now, that is money buying happiness right there
It's almost 12 and i have decided to skip school tomorrow and only attend Drama classes
I need to stop being lazzzzy and start looking at the BIGGER picture of life
To me, this is the biggest it gets

I just realised how bloody plain my blog is. I never really took the time to uh... decorate it
But ruth said "only stupid people don't know how to do it" cause it's that simple
Sadly, i still haven't figured how to do it. I'm just too lazy to learn
See, i learn too many things at school already. My brains going to burst
Just like my heart..and my nose..and my fingers..and...

I realised my weekend's are gonna be pretty busy soon.
I gotta practice my CLEO lines for the school play..
(yes, i play a pretty smart babe that thinks she's smart but actually she's so fucking dumb)
ya uh, that was the role i got. But i play funny too, So i hope that comes out good

Amy Winehouse has sucha sexy voice it's making me mad
CURSES!

i haven't heard this song in agesss, but i love the chorus
anyway, i had a pretty good weekend
operation hide-your-boy-friend-in-the-house was damn funny
then there was Matt's birthday night (which wasnt even his real birthday date)
so we drank after a longggg time

and sunday is always boring save me
thank the heaven's school's ending at 12.45 tomorrow

what if words could hurt?

Good evening, i'm falling asleep in front of the computer, the alcohol's making me sleepyyy
Happy Birthday Matt, told you you'd get piss drunk

Walking on the way home was funny
i was singing songs out loud. real loud.
and i sprained my ankle while walking along the pavement
and i ran across the road like some lunatic
not funnyy, not funny hahaha

which reminds me, now i shall go sleeep!
tomorrow is a sad, sad day of wardening

Durian pancakes are so good, how could one not apprechiate durians?
I think me and ruth are so paranoid
Mainly her. We went back to her place and thought it had been "invaded"
so with our imaginations wild, we thought people were hiding within the house
We grabbed our 'tools' and walked around fiercely
only to realise, the whole time we had been fooling ourselves
i love ruth!
i will now drink orange juice, and eat apples! to get rid of this flu
till more adventures....

and this 'real'
it's impossible if possible
at who's blind word
so clear but so unheard

it's only the 1st day of the week and i feel drained
how could they make me stay in school for 11 and a half hours!
how caaaaan tell me now

On thursday, i fell in school along the steps and lana couldn't stop laughing. haha-very funny..
revenge struck her just 10 minutes later when she was at the bustop along the steps, and she fell
I had a really really really really really good laugh

I've been so restless lately. maybe i need a more exciting life
but this is the most exciting it'll ever get, i think
today i was telling nes how i would like to roll back from town to my house
or walk home from school in the scorching sun
dont ask me, i don't even understand myself!

but i love love love my boyfriend and everyone else in between
they = me
they make me

sticks and stones may break my bones, but words and hurt like hell- Lulluby

The weather is terrible it's so fucking hot, like it's a tanning day everyday :o
Plus, school is pissing me off i hate school you know that
I feel like building a glass wall over singapore and air conditioning the whole place
Ahhhh... what a nice, cooling singapore it would be
BUT NO, FUCK GLOBAL WARMING. but in the end,
it all boils down to us, and how much we want to save our fucking universe
think wise people! you live in this god forsaken place, take care of it!

And don't throw plastic in the sea, please..
sea animals are dying from it
like they're mistaking plastic for food, i mean yaya..they're bird brains
but it's not our fault their so stupid
we need to keep em alivee
you know what i mean?!!?!?!?



(i know what you're thinking, "fergie"?!!? no, i dont care what you think)

(uh, don't mind the tummies) haha


I am missing something
it's a big big big gap
i'm still trying to figure what it is

but i think, it's too much to do with me

going out with nelle and ruth made me realise that
you can never shut anythin out for too long.
if you don't find it, it'll find you

I think i know what's my problem in the school area of my life.
I dont have motivation! i need motivation. QUICK.
If not i'll never succeed in life and i fear i will become a sad woman
with messy, dry and bleached hair. oh god, sounds so scarey
i better start doing something about my life.....before it's too late
but people always say "it's never too late"
you see, i like to talk myself out of things, and that makes me such a failure

and the weekend just flew by! 3 days, gone!
i didn't even abuse the weekend. how could this be! i need nov to come
come quick!

Love is how it's lost, not how it's found

what's the date today? i love moving around like this
without knowing the date, days move faster
the faster you want it to move the slower it takes
it's complicating but i like it

i am displaced

i think this is a really sweet song



Just give me moments. Not hours or days......
1 month just flew by. Now everything's gonna be back to normal.
Thinking about going back to school is making my heart feel heavy, and my stomach sick.
Soon, i'll be seeing everyone with the same old morning faces.
I've not even done my homework. I forgot what we were suppose to do.
I know there was a project right, i just dont know what it's about.
Going to school is like experiencing death
And i thank caracal for a good night yesterday

i'm just glad i had too much to drink yesterday


open heart surgery

Yep, i'm spending my holidays real well. considering it's the last week and all. i went to Jet for free yo! muahahahahaha. so there was about 30 of us. huge group, and we all got in free. most of the guys jumped in from the back (which was a funny story, i heard) and the girls got sneaked in by the bouncers. it was like some movie thing. so i guess you'd agree. I'm having a pretty good holiday ;)

but in all, for yesterday, i say thanks to wicked! you're the best skinny chinese boy

I'm going to take the final week of the holidays seriously. Enjoy it real well and have the most fun i possibly can. 3 weeks has flown by like that. Just that. No no no, i will make proper use of my time.

Today i traspassed. Swam in some pool. It was actually a show pool, but still fun. Me, Nes, Anthony &Shirley decided that we'd swim at night at some place. So we went. The water was fucking cold. But it was good fun! Double dates are fun......

And this is what i call "make proper use of my time" hahaha
and drink, don't forget drink. ever.

I'm back! Back to his bad weather, and sunny island. So bloody hot! Okay, so today wasn't that bad. Father's day is tomorrow so we went to get cards. Mine was pretty funny. And after that we were supposed to drink. But we got too carried away with fluffy and to much talk, so we skipped drinking. It's on tuesday instead. when we go for the Jet concert and dance to the music. Speaking of which, some lyrics i gotta remember.

And Australia wasn't that bad. The guys were cute, the weather was nice. It's just that the aussie lifestyle is too different from singapore. 8pm, and it's like ghost town in their town area. It's nuts. 8pm here and i'm about to drink. Can't do it, i just can't do it.

Nes:maybe i could read it and figure it out. i mean bio's just like plants right?

Tash: I dont know. i forgot.

Me and my head high, And my tears dry


When i listen to this song it just makes me want to light a cig, and drink cheap red wine.

It's raining heavily here in Sydney. And the temperature's way below 10 degrees. It's nuts! Somehow i just can't wait to get back to Singapore, as much as i hate that place. I secretly love it. I love the people, the food, and my bed, my pillows. I'm sick of living under other people's roofs. Their house means their rules. I can't take rules. I HATE RULES!

I actually can't wait for ruth to get down. Every mid night i'll head to her house to chill and catch up on things. Having no parents around, and in your house could never be better with your best friend back in town! ya know what im saying? Party days are in! (even if school has started)

The TV taught me how to sulk and love nothing.

I'm in sydney, and very colddddd.
I'm missing the singapore night life. By 9pm here it's already pretty dead.
whereas singapore's like still rocking at night. My mum and Gavin keeps thinking i'm Lovesick. . But not that i'd deny it, i miss nes. i miss my house too. its like i cant dig the fridge. I'd have to dig Aunt Anne's fridge. The new Bloc Party cd's great. Uniform's one of the better songs in the cd. But the lyrics in the song is real good, and true.

oh so we're on this long drive to the great ocean road and my mum goes
"Ok, we will now pray that we will have a safe journey to and back from The Great Ocean Road"

Long pause.....................

"mum, we prayed yet?"

"no"

Anberlin and Copeland were great. I've got Nathan's signature on my ticket.
Last night was a really good start to my holidays! Yes, i am going to aussieland in a few hours.
Keep telling myself it'll be fun. I am excited. Will not be miserable...

At least i'm getting out of Singapore for a while. Goodbye fucking hot weather for 11 days!
Don't miss me too muchhhhh

ps; always drink before a concert. you'd enjoy it more.

"Use that evidence, Race it around."

Hey, it's almost 4 and i'm dealing with the "i cannot sleep" disease.

Always happens during the holidays.

So we all result to staying awake will 5 am, crawling and bawling

out of your house to meet for breakfast at 5am

at kembangan with sleepy faces, ready to begin the day (for some.)

So in about an hour i will jump into "ready to start the day" clothes

and meet the rest, have breakfast,

head to church all alone...and dying..

then head for a stupid menicure,

get drunk as a skunk

(IT RHYMES!) i suck at rhyming stuffs

And finally what we've all been waiting for, Anberlin & Copeland!

Or for nes, "Anberland & Copelin" hahahaha

I'm so restless, my head feels so empty and light.

And all i'm thinking about are salty peanuts and how they might taste in my mouth.

mmmmmmmmm.. salty peanut goodness...

NOOOOOOOOOOT.

I hate to use my retainers. Hate, hate, hate.
They're the most irritating things on this cruel earth
You have to use it at night(without a choice)
And treat it like how you treat your actual teeth.
I am going to throw a huge party when i don't need to use this stupid thing anymore.
Hang in there Tash..you've got many months more to go.

Other then my stupid irritating peice of plastic,
My boyfriend is back! Hurrrrrrah
Don't be to happy, I'll be going on Monday.
A sad week and a half without me.
Awwwwww, don't cry! :)

Hola! today was spent at Sentosaaaaa. Not really..just 2 hours of my life was spent at sentosa today. I went there especially for the sunset. (nothing much..i know.)

I was so desperate i went to check what time the sun was gonna set on the weather forcasts.

(ha ha, laugh all you want at me). But i guess i enjoyed myself. Chit chat-ted with Trich alot.

However, the drunk side of her rocks harder!

hoihoi

Don't cry out.

I always have this lazy feeling every Sunday morning. I think it's always from the crazy Saturday nights. Last night was all at clark quey, we sat by the river(or whatever you might wanna call it, since singapore doesnt really have a river) and chilled. While Anthony and Faiz climbed the high walls. No it was seriously high, i'd say.. 4 stories above the ground?

I'm eating this cupcake, and its actually very nice!

It's the start of the holidays! It's what we've been waiting for over the past few months! I'm in the holiday mood!
To be honest, i've been in the holiday mood since..May. But not in the holiday mood for June. More like in the holiday mood since December. I got my results back today too. Lets just say I can do much better. Much, much better.

I know i suck. I suck so bad. Just 1/10th in me is telling me i don't care. Truth is, i really don't care.
NO! i can't. i have to care! THINK LONG TERM TASH. WHERE WILL YOU BE IN THE NEXT 20 YEARS?

Pfffffft. that's easy. Reading a megazine in my super big house with a pet called sausage running around.
So you get what i mean when i say "just dont care"?

"Everyday i wish i was small. Will you still love me? "


1.22am, drunk. Everything looks to blur. Even the key board. i'm terrible sorry if i dont spell anything right. Haed too much to drink tonight. Huh, tek Chai? (that goes to f1,f2,jackie,and of ccourse tek chai.)

Finally when i've gained a little normal-ness again, i realise i've got Tek chai's jacket. Shit.
All i remember was 4 of us giggling in the train, and one by one, each just was jumping off at thier stops. Great start to your June holidays huh? Getting high with your friends, and swaying left and right walking on the way home. (yeah, i wasn;t the only one)

Suprisingly, i actually love it
and too bad my boyfriend's not in singapore to join is. Missing youuuuu

I bet everyone's just closing their eyes, and hoping to fall asleep soon

I swear 1 minute ago i was spotting all the wrong spellings in this post.
Now i just can't find it. OH, THE IRONY!

"We don't want you to see. We come and we go. Here today, gone tomorrow"

I just finish reading I Love Everyone (& other atrocious lies). It's such an interesting novel. Notaro could make you laugh anywhere. I could laugh reading the book in the train, detention, or even library. Go get it!Okay, other then that. I gotta get ready to go over to jackie's place and then the group. I don't know what we'd be up to today. But i'll let you know! For now, gotta rush off. Chao cyber space!

skies always look great in pictures, esp during sunsets.

Beautiful Bora Bora.

I think i need a holiday. I real holiday..Like the kinds down the beach. And there's nothing stopping you from having a good time. Nothing...

oh, and you gotta love this!

"we better start panicking, and restore some 'sg-ness' back in her!"

Today I realised alot of things. Earlier today when i collected my phone at the Nokia shop, the man returning my phone back to me had long finger nails. Not all his fingers, just one. And it was really distracting and i didnt get what the hell he was explaining to me. There were stuff in his nails...it was gross.

Then as i walked around town, i saw this lady. She dressed well. But her shoeeeeees.
They were too big for her. It was high heels. But waaaaaaay to big for her. It looked like while she was walking it was gonna fly off or something. Not Good.
I wanted to shout "DANGER ZONE!" cause i that was playing in my head was a man walking, the high heel flying off, hitting him and he dies. hahaha tragic.

And i found it quite amusing how i was annoying this women at Topshop. She worked in the changing room and i kept getting the wrong sizes so i asked her to find it for me. I think i asked her like 5 times. And then made her find my shirt i accidentally dumped in with the stack of clothes i didn't want. Hahahaha. ohhhhhh, whatta day!

I'm wondering why these little black clouds keep walking around with me.
It wastes time and I'd rather be high.

"Love is crazzzy"

Keith: Shut up. I hate you.
Tash: Get out of my life, I hate you too.
Nique: Will you both just quit it..
Keith: Shut the hell up, i hate you too nique.

Funny, when we 3 were having sushi together. hahahahahaha
Keith, don't you just love us?



oh, and check this picture out. I was looking around and i found this!
There's marieanne, alex, me, and teri on the swings..swinging. haha

Day's are passing by too slowly. It's like i'm sitting still at one spot and everyone's just walking pass me and around me. And i don't feel tired, or sleepy, or talkative, nothing. It's like i'm waiting for something big to happen. Waiting.. waiting.. waiting... and it never comes.

And i've got a stupid papercut that hurts so bad! Tits Mcgeee

I hate having nothing to do. Especially if it's 1.45 in the morning, and all your friends are totally bumbed out on too much alcohol and living on 2 days ago.
I've got my jasmine green tea right next to me and Ladytron on with "Everything you touch."

It's making me feel...light

I know that this has got to be Nes's two most favourite people in the world. :D
Just look at the picture....So much love..

Okay, life's pretty boring. I sleep early, cause there's nothing to do, no one to talk to, and nowhere to go...........................That's actually a lie. I do have places to go! In fact, i have alot of things to do. I've just gotten more lazy over the past few days.

However tomorrow i will break the i-am-always-lazy-after-school chain and get back to my active self! Like check this out, i just knew that Aiman drinks. Like where was i for the past 34682386384693546 years ya know? God...i should start listening to bands like Good Charlotte and all. Keep in tune with the times and all. Ok, i think i'm typing too much nonsense. and it's 12.14 in the morning. i dont even feel one bit tired.........


keep safe!

"Are you my nemesis or my lover?"


Live Saver's got a good introduction to the song.
And about today, not much. I just headed to Nes's place. & it's fine. I can do 13 days. PLUS, I have to go back to school tomorrow. CURSES! And i'm getting my results back. damn.

Also about 41 days till Ruth gets down. I guess the rest of May is all about waiting for me. Pffffffffft. I mean it's all just waiting. Nothing much..right? I mean it's all just days. i can do days... just days.

Today was pretty good. It's the end of all the studying papers! So me and my friends celebrated just a little... then i met nes in the afternoon. Sushi, as usual. You know, i dont know when we'll actually start getting sick of it. Well, it was a fruitful day for me (again.) with my water guns and all........

right nes? :)

So today by 10am i was practically free to do whatever i want. So i headed down to Parkway. It was only me and Jiayure. So we ate, and went to topshop, looked and stuff and all.

Then we came across this kids toy shop, that we had no clue we'd have so much fun in.
We walked out with a toy water gun each. So satisfied, and very excited, we decided to fill it with water, and travel around shooting people(we didn't know.). First, it was an english man, then a chinese middle aged man and 2 lower secondary school boys. Hahaha. When Jiayure shot water, and they turned around and saw me laughing, they tought i did something! it was so unfairrrrrrrrrrrrr

b ut li fe is un fa ir

Oh, those were from saturday too. hahaha. The terrible-est paper is over! ACCOUNTS.
I'm not going to say i'm going to pass. But i'm not to sure if i'm going to fail either. However, i'm telling myself that i am going to fail it! So in case i do, it won't be so much of a let down!

Tomorrow is Wednesday, and then Thursday! THURSDAY. THURSDAAAAAAAAY

i ha te sing a pore's we a ther

aye Shay, can't wait to see you in November you funny short bastard.

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We're beggining to drink at everyone's birthday now, & one bottle is getting too little for the whole group of us. Today was Alex's birthday and she celebrated it with us! Not to mention she got so high, she went "who are you?" to Nes. Hahaha.
And losing her ciggerate pack. Check out the pictures!

Good evening! One more week of the exams and it's freedomeeeeeeeeee,
for about a new months, and then there's the mid years. But i try not to make myself think of that. I just had a can of redbull 10 minutes ago. I don't know why i have to stay up tonight. I just need too. I neeeeeeeeed too. i neeeeeeeeeeed too.
I also found out, that i study better in the middle of the night. But it's been scientifically (excuse my spelling if it's wrong) proven that human beings can only concentrate for 45 minutes straight till they cant concentrate anymore. See! you learn something new everyday.


I DID NOT GET IT FROM SNAPPLE FACTS.

peas!

My class calls my teacher Sunshine. Sunshine, i know. The teacher and my class are like... enemies preparing for battle. All the time. Other than my huge dislike for my form teacher, i've not been at it. Studying.

Good luck to meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Also, we've been preparing my Alex's 15th. And we came up with a list of things to do. Drink. You see, chalet's wayyyyyyyyyy to expensive considering that we're already having one in June. So, it's hotel 81. hahahahaha. don't ask.