Tonight my music is loud, it is to drown all my thoughts away...it's working
I shouldn't feel scared. I shouldn't, i shouldn't. because we will pull through. we have to. we always do.
If we don't what the fuck will i have left what the fuck will i have left

empty like how my stomach feels right now because i haven't been eating properly for days
anxiety attack i think. i should go to the doctors they can give me pills. good pills..to calm me.
I should start yoga again thats good you know keeping myself busy
i shouldnt have time to think if not something is wrong means i'm way to free
maybe i need to smoke teach me how to r o l l

dear god help please you may choose to ignore but this time i need all the help i can get because i feel like everything might leave me, and it would be nice if you were on my side(just this once)

i will break my own heart