today was..eventful. Me and nes managed to do a little last minute shopping. Still i'm short of a few things, presents. To think that this year is comming to an end is just so soon..this has been one hell of a fun unexpecting cRaZy year. good timez...still, 2006 owns! merry christmas!

there's a corner of your heart (just for me)

"maybe you're not even human cause..only an angel could be so unusual"


On the 15th, I celebrated my birthday with all the people that i love..and it was a pretty good turnout. A few didn't turn up, but it's alright..there's still next year. Everyone left the chalet at like 630 in the morning..Faiz puking and all haha. Good times, good times.. And i got my N level results, i topped the class with 4 points. So, sec 5 for me! Been hanging a lot with Ruth since she's down. You have to watch our suprise video. I laughed like mad.. aaaaah MEMORIES!

FAIZ : what do you call a deer with no eyes?

TASH: a blind deer?

FAIZ: NO-I-DEER!

-__________________-

"I want to know this time if
you’re really finally mine
I need to know that you're not lying so I want to see you tried
And I don't want to hear you say it shouldn’t really be this way
'Cause I like this way just fine"

patterns will fall as quick as i do..i'm learning a new way of thinking now

"Maybe we like the pain. Maybe we're wired that way. Because without it, I don't know; maybe we just wouldn't feel real. What's that saying? Why do I keep hitting myself with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop" -Meredith Grey

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

Hi! like like like 19 days to christmas and I am unprepared, nothing ready at all. But i'm content like this, the rush makes me more excited. Feels so weird that this whole year is ending..I swear it feels like last week or something it was christmas eve. I remember it so clearly. But such is life, and time flies! i digress

Ruth will be down in like 9 days! I am more excited than you can ever imagine. I will feel whole-er than i already do. The only other person in the whole world who'll understand anything and just listen. I know she's reading so i love you. can't wait to see you! and I AM COUNTING DOWN THE DAYS :] I've been working, but other than that enjoying my days left of the holidays with nes and i love him. gah till death

ok, i'm sleepy

This is a Saturday, what was on my to do list was : shoe sale, movie and flee market...
Apparently not so..because my cousin and jackiee bowed out at the last minute and i'm now deciding.
Since i'm the only masketeer standing..why not go alone? In fact I love to do things alone. This is no math quiz. Simple, i will go alone. Until my boyfriend is done with his chores, it will be me,myself & I :]

"So I look in your direction..but you pay me no attention, do you?"

On the 22nd I held a small party at my house for Nes's 18th, and when i woke up at 3pm the next day..empty glasses were on the floor with a bailey's bottle near them. "mmmm, so this is what i did last night..." and knocked out again till 430pm.

somethin somethin for you to look at!

SCUM BAG BITCH SLUT MOTHERFUCKING WHORE TIT FACE FUCK OFF! FUCKING SLUTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT

i dont know what to say, and i don't know what to think..
what i do know is i need a strong drink, and lots& lots of nicotine.
anything to get this out of my head. anything



"we open up, unfinished parts, broken up, its only love."

So Nique is my cousin..and she is well, so much more trust worthy with family information compared to myself..

Jackie: Wanna eat on Saturday, like a proper dinner?
Tash: ok, set
Jackie: set ah, DONT YOU DARE change plans! I book you on saturday evening.
Tash: yup..ok
Jackie: oh wait! you also another one right, cannot right?
Tash: huh? what do you mean?
Jackie: Nique said it's your grandmother's birthday!
Tash: really ah? how come i didnt know!
Jackie: -_____________________________________________-

I finally spoke to Tatum after god knows how long,and our conversations still go the same way.

"you really don't like her.."
"no she's ok la, just that in primary school she used to tell me she was a magician. And i believed her"


PART 2 of the conversation went like

"gets me so annoyed and jealous"
"OMGGGGG DITTO"

"how did he even get her?good catch. I mean DAMN good catch"

Hahaha, will see that tiny lady after her A's.

To one of the nicest old lady i've met, and her family


and for now, to nes...
If you were falling, then I would catch you.
You need a light, I'd find a match.

Cause I love the way you say good morning.
And you take me the way I am.

If you are chilly, here take my sweater.
Your head is aching, I'll make it better.

Cause I love the way you call me baby.
And you take me the way I am.

I'd buy you Rogaine when you start losing all your hair.
Sew on patches to all you tear.

Cause I love you more than I could ever promise.
And you take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.
You take me the way I am.

Just 16 and sucker's dream I guess I thought you had the flavour
Just 16 and dream obscene with six months off for bad behavior

I'm done with my N levels, and classified under 'problem child' for the next 6 months.. and I don't think i can handle it.
I'm going to have a baby brother in like.. 4 or 5 months which I find so totally weird becase i'm so used to being the only one..and well if i might say, very spoilt. I'm going to be an older sister! Though I may not be the best example..
But this kid probably won't need a good example because by the time he's old enough to disobey his parents i will be, (sadly) in my 30s. hahahaha

Among my 2 best friends (Ruth&Jac)

I am the cryer,
I am also the white legs,
Not to mention the one who 'fell into the drain'
The one who tells long stories..

I am ruth's other half...............................tit
and I am jackie's Asparagus, and Deer meet.

And there's so many things that i want to be emberrased of, but I can't because they know me inside out and every little detail of how i felt at that moment when my..misfortunes happened. hahaha

I can't wait for ruth to get back so we 3 can chill and talk about the olddd times

My N's are on now, and i feel so deprived of a normal life. Normally I am not home this much,normally I do not study this much. NORMALLY, Saturday's are my "off" days..

sacrifices sacrifices....

By next tuesday however, I will be as free as a bird! and i can finally start singing!

 

"DONT WORRY ABOUT A THING,CAUSE EVERYTHING LITTLE THING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT!" :]

I've never been more content, My face is a big red beating heart! Never knew I could love this much
Hold on to this

"only an infinite sadness that wrenches my heart and little by little and devours it" -Melissa P.

Love, love is a verb 
Love is a doing word 
Fearless on my breath 
Gentle impulsion 
Shakes me, makes me lighter 

Sunday I ate so  much and puked so much, 

had a high fever..&on Wednesday's  my Social Studies exam.

But I couldn't be more ready, i've memorized 

the whole book, i'm like a walking propaganda now. (haha!)

Can you believe this, out of the whole year

my body decides to breakdown 2 days before my exam!

I am also jinxed.

Lately Coldplay's been keeping me grounded,

 as well as yoga breathing techniques.

I felt my life with both my hands

I could feel it go down, bittersweet i could taste in my mouth

silver lining in the cloud, and i wish i could work it out 

close enough for you to taste, but you just can't touch

I got my first B for Maths in a long time, and it feels way too good. I am striving high, aiming for A2 next. Recently i've studying quite a bit. I feel so at ease..like how i feel after yoga. (yes, apparently i am into all this spiritual heeling)

Just like Lana's need to photoshop her pictures, my need is to study..And dragging my boyfriend to my house to watch movies from my stepdad's collection of 53634572 dvds. Then finishing one whole box of popcorn and rolling around feeling fat.Now that's my idea of a friday night

So me and Nes are walking around and i'm looking for a hat to buy and we see this light brown one and i'm like.....

Tash: what'd you think?

Nes: I dont know man...Sarah's got something like thing this and it's pink but fucking ugly

SILENCE

 

Tash: uh..babe, that was my hat 

Nes: oh shit. sorry.

I had a pretty great weekend, Tricia's birthday, free Singfest (with a bunch of my friends that crashed it) with uncountable free vouchers from Stefan working at the drinks. For me, One Republic owned it. They are amazing live! Also, Ryan Ross from Panic! was too damn hot in his 70's wear, and all of them performing on those 'magic carpets' But coming back from Singfest..was my Social Studies exam. Which i wasted my time studying because the question i did in the end was the chapter that i didnt study..looking forward to 2 months time! Lucky for me, i get to sleep in tomorrow because i don't have school!

I have got to start sleeping earlier everyday. Girls who use the computer, drink alcohol or..(something else but i forgot) put on weight faster! 

My prelims are in a few days, and i havent started at all. I feel guilty..usually im so motivated to do well. I feel like im going to be burning midnight oil. I've never used that term before..sounds funny that i just did. 

Ok. i will concentrate on my studies. peace V

you see I always wanted to kiss you but 
I always wanted to run from you 
because I always wanted to miss you 
and I, always wanted to comfort you

I feel totally unappreciated by my friends. Like no one tells me anything anymore! It was a little like "did you hear, she's going out with..." and i'm like no? "where the hell were you?"

haha.. apparently, i'm "one to carry stories"(?) that's why they like to keep me out of the box..

days at school feel horrible..and my prelims are in 2 weeks? I. am. not. ready.

I am blue

I am blue& unwell

this is our friendship.

After my teacher so expressed her hatred for me and lana...

myself: (and i mouth "Bitch")

lana: (mouth's back "big bitch")

myself: "DEMON"

lana: "fat demon"

I want to slip you into my day

"no one knows i'm gone"

whirlwind mixed feelings

I am young,& i can afford to make mistakes.

I am young,& i can afford to make mistakes

A few days before school starts, i'm planning to blow my leftover of fun time at Sarah's uncle's 11 million dollar house at Sentosaaaa this Saturday :) ..lets just hope i don't get a beer belly :S Days has just been passing with me and my boyfriend chilling at his place,baking,eating..watching tv and me.. with my sad attempts to get tanner. Haven't seen mulia in like forever im going to deep fry him in pork oil the next time i see him

My idea of who i am changes every ten minutes

A little from Zon's

i'm still the same, drained

nevermind/me

can't sleep tonight

"the moon belongs to everyone, the best things in life are free"

My exams are over! and my weekend was good..oh you know the usual weekend, your usual drinks, with the usual people with the usual gurd 

Gav: "You know your mum..and her hard liquor"

Mum: "Yes.. i like vodka. just like you Tash!"

Oh. My. God. I did not believe that conversation actually happened. Actually if they knew me well enough, they'd know that i don't really like Vodka. I like hard liquor.. but Vodka never does it for me. Haven't gone to school in 2 days because there hasn't been any studying. Must. Live. Life. Right. Way.

have a good one!

slow me down, i need you to slow me down

I remember that feeling well, the first pitch and roll inside the stomach, where it's suddenly all hands on deck..that first physical collision of love. 

"what do the protestants believe in?"
"THEY BELIEVE IN BEEF!"-jiahui, my international friend(CHINA) she's way too funny sometimes haha

The strokes are driving me nuts, they are too bloody good. These next few weeks will be my exam weeks and..on Friday i'm going for a party. I have little control over these kind of things..party or study? drink or drug, eat or sleep..it's been too difficult for me..."it doesn't which you choose..." says this song.

My boyfriend is a man! hahaha NS soon la,
he will shoot me when he sees this hahaha love you laaa my muscles :]

Another long week, but just thankful that mid years don't really count becuz i'm going to flung the exam..only passing my english. On saturday i had this craving to watch Romeo and Juliet, and so i did making my poor boyfriend sit down to watch it with me..haha. But somewhere along the lines i got a weeee bit irritated. Why didn't Juliet just tell Romeo that she was going to drink that potion thingy, that would've saved both their lives.Thank god for mobile phones now..it would've gone a long way in the movie hahaha

I got a bunch of new shirts over the weekend, and now my saving up for a pair of new vans! Woo! ok, gotta smoke enjoy!


im suchhhha bitch sometimes you know
but if you're gonna like me, like me
if not don't like me at all ok?ok.

everything has been the same, i am still the same
jeff buckley's hallelujiah really makes me wanna lie in bed till i drift
but no, tonight i'm studying. with my cigarettes,coke and whatever it is i am ready!(no caffine, overloading myself with too much) but i heard coke has caffine...i hate diet coke you know?

Anyway sarah was admitted to the hopital on thursday, hope she's well
i need a get away, dear jesus please hear
call twigs soon, need to go on paradise trips again..intoxicateeeee

HI my stupid laptop is like screwing up and im very annoyed.
but luckily its time to head to my grandmother's place
time to listen to some paramore, heard they might be coming down mid this year
can't wait! must pass mid years first -_-

going to dye my bloody hair dark red soon
too damn annoyed with light brown
ok off i go
love

something different


"don't get me wrong..she's very nice, but.." -tash
"but her hair." -lana
"hahaha"

How can a guy hit a girl? oh my goodness, i can feel my blood boiling i just wanna kick him in the nuts for touching my small one. I don't think any guy can say he hit a girl "out of anger" omg if he saw me hit him "out of anger" he'd be in the wheel chair tomorrow. haha. Happy birthday ruth! i love you ok my sweet pea haha :]

It's good to be inlove, it really does suit you (just like everything)
i'm happy you're inlove..cause every colour goes where you do

Friday is just one day away!

you will only just remember how it feels..

SPEEDING CARS


"I've watched you slowly winding down for years
You can't keep on like this, now's a better time as any"

"am i cheating on my boyfriend?"
"nope, not yet you are.."

"it's ok by me, it was a long time ago"

"..and i will always love you the way you are"

I'm gaining weight..slowly but surely..ew, fatso
diet diet diet diet diet diet dont dont dont dont dont dont

HHHHHI. i really wanted to post something funny today...but i forgot.
So i lost my wallet yesterday and some kind male, a little over teenage soul came to my house to return it.
I felt like death when i lost it, IC, POSB, EZLINK, and the works!

Tell me you love me, i'll say 'i know' with a smile ;)
hahahaha, omgomgomgomg, i'm so putting my past behind me. I cannot remember who i was like...2 or 3 years ago. ok, got it?
have a gooood week ahead!

"Previously on the OC...."

One day I slowly floated away..
Fragile as we lie, be with me forever
Your eyes are beating rhythms
Soft& soap scented

I'd gladly give it to somebody else because i only wanna be with you.

Came online just to look through dictionary.com...but i guess this is where I left myself.
OK. done, i was looking for another word for Happy, and came across Lively. That's good. I like lively. Lively it is!

Today i was fooled (once again) by the clock in my classroom. You see, it is spoilt, and it is now always stuck at 8.07
Well, me being me...I came late for class and checked the time 8.07 mm, not bad considering i was late for school. Just 40 minutes late. Grab accounts text, listen..chew bubble gum..check time 8.07 ok not too bad....5 minutes later check time again, 8.07 FINALLY figure out that the clock is obviously not working, i turn to look at my friends watch, 8.20. Crazy.

OK, Happy Birthday to Keith. We all went to his girlfriend's place to eat and be merry! had a fun time. Seriously need to be getting back to my english homework.......Lively was it?

how do you think the party on friday was? AND how do you think my holiday went?



From tomorrow, I could do another year, and another and another and another with you. I love you.
and i've got my heart set on nothing else!

Now the clouds become electric, here I am. There you are.

Ok, now that it's drizzling lightly, I better take this opportunity to get ready and leave the house. And not forgetting my sweater.. I always forget the most important things.

like gravity, hipocrisy, and the perils of being in 3-D
but thinking so much differently...
pardon me, don't ever be the same.

While everyone was at zouk last night, I slept for twelve hours all through the night. I am whimsical, and afraid of this..but still alive. Tomorrow and friday will definately be something to look forward too..must. change. lifestyle.
Also, my phone is broken. I've decided to stick on my old phone because i just keep damaging my phones..i am the clumsiest ever.


tear-jerker

ok, will quickly tell you how the weekend went dowwwwn, friday night was really good. Saosin and Incubus were fantastic
Saturday morning, me and nes got up to his really fat dog inbetween us then bummed through the whole afternoon. And today, hung out with Nes's friends. But in the end it was only down to the 4 of us. Nes, me, stef, and sarah
And tomorrow i'll be hanging with my one and only friend from china and tuesday me and nes'll be hanging with nique and lenon in the afternoon and nes's friends at night. hahaha as you can see i'll be pretty busssy but that's good. abusing the holidaysssss have a good weekend

co un ti ng u p t he ye ar s,
st e ady ha nd s ju st ta ke t he wh e el
ti me t o ma ke th e la st ap p e al
fo r t he li fe i le ad

to ni gh t we dri nk to you th
a nd hol di ng fas t t he tru th

myself: don't forget mum, i'm staying jackie's place tomorrow
mum: no, since when?
myself: are you kidding me!
mum: yes. can't you take a joke.
(with her face all striaght..what is a joke?)

On Sunday i'm pulling the 'mum did you know i've got a tattoo?' joke. & can't contain my exciteness! Incubs and Saosin. And a break. A short break, but still a break. If there's one thing i've learned, it's got to be appreciative. My blog is too boring, it needs a new fix..just like me. Today i realised what a 2nd best i am. In everything..stop being 2nd best, and start being 1st. ok with my motto in my left hand, and an apple in my right, im ready to take on the world. ...But before i go, i actually like to be 2nd best. 1st best is too attention seeking i feel, too much media, too much love from everyone. I have to had it up to here with love. I get enough from my muscle making boyfriend. "without love i won't survive......" which is true you know? like how you read a 'how to go on a diet book' and think that it's all crap, but actually deep down inside you, you know that it really works and secretly you actually want to give it a try? It's the fear of knowing what you'll be in the future. But it's a deeper fear of knowing what you are now. Okay, so don't let me keep rambling! Off i go, enjoy your weekend!

i think the world is against me, how could i have so many cruel things happening to me is a short period of time?
first the really long bus waits, the ahlians coming so close to me on the bloody phone, the spraining of the ankle, the tests...
the complicated biology classes, the moving of the desks, the rainy days, the arguing in my house. all in 2 days..
overload. again.

b ut i wou ldnt ch ange a thing n ow that yo u 're her e

Last night was one of those toilet hugging nights, rolling in late, drunk and pretty much sick
remind me never to do that again.......over the next week

i saw a lady in the train yesterday(reeking of purfume). middle aged, in working out attire (all pink mind you). she was streching in the train, (with nike shoes that you should be sued if seen wearing) as if to let us know that she was gonna exercise..please remind me never to be like that too

on a most terrible note, i've got a long educational week ahead. but also on a lighter note, incubus and saosin will be down! also the March holidays are comming, use&abuse.

love

me and my boyfriend are having a fun fight right now..secretly, i'm enjoy this. hahaha
ok, love my boyfriend to death xoxo
(but secretly) i am a wee bit hurt :(

after a mighty long weekend,i'm ready to start the bloody weekday(z)
ok, march holidays are comming in 2 weeks. It is the next best thing to look forward too..
back to school books, long days, filled with tuition, drama and laughter i am not ready
AND also so confused about which bloody concert to go to..it's stressing me out cause i'm having $$$ issues. gah
ok better get sleep before i die soon. you all have a good week yes?

some 'you make me high' to end with

I do things on impulse. IMPULSE. Don't think, just do..remember that?(still the motto)

Parents are going away for the weekend! I will abuse it, probably. And the magazine was right, we need more alone time. Next week, Sunday will be my day, doing my thing, eating my food, and all that jazz..nothing about me has changed. I am disappointed. I was suppose to be a 'better person' I am far from a better person. I need to read 'how to improve your life' books, eat healthy, exercise regularly..da da da da  you know the usuals. On love, in sadness. 

Okay, i'm going to be a slug in bed watching tv, smoking, eating oreo's with milk. The tv made us like this. In my head is a memory of my boyfriend using 'hip-hop' clothes prancing around his room, trying to rap. He is the best i just wanna squish you you wait on saturday ok you piece of meeeeat

I feel like i am spinning, spinning, spinning..my world is falling apart. falling all around me

Okay, is it me or do girls flatter themselves waaaaaaaaaay to much. Admittingly, i would say that once in a while i am guilty of it..but wow, am i so amazed..just so amazed at how bimbotic we all can be. It's looks over books! &, we are actually more petty than you think..really

this is to no one specific at all..just a hell of a alot of annoyance. Have a good week! see you da flipp sidee lol

Happiest with you :)


11 months. I'm going to explodeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee full of love
this is cheezy, but hey! check the song out :D


"And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
What I feel when i'm with you.."

"The truth is..there is no truth, we don't know what we want. We never do,and when we think we've figured it out, it changes. Again."

I spent Valentines with two other couples this year, & and if you're the type that got turned down..don't give up. You see, there's always next year. The thing about singapore is, we commercialise Valentines day so much that we have got ourselves wanting to celebrate it. Don't be dishearted my friends.

Tash: babe, lets stop smoking
Nes: are you serious? cause it's too expensive right?
Tash: no..and yes.

Lent lent lent lent..it's a difficult time of the year. Especially when you forget that it's a Friday and you're actually eating barbequed chicken. hahaha

Yes, & this is the story of my life....

My stomach feels upset. I've done it again, overeat.


ok, so! it's Sunday already! Are we all ready for the week? (no.) Are we all ready to face the challenges school brings (no.) Are we ready to learn something new? (no.) Last : WOULD WE ALL LIKE TO SLEEP IN? (YESSSSSSS.)

Valentines day is comming..and i'm going on a quaddriple date. hahaha, too much to handle you think? gifts..not really nesecarry right? I mean common, i just blew all my dough on the christmas present and now valentines? Could being in a relationship get anymore expensive? hahaha. no baby, i'm kidding. i got you a present already. lovelove
FINALLY, i heard from ruth. She says she's having a good time in Sydney. Which is fantastic..cause now we know she's having fun. :D

I'm actually feeling very selfless today..do you know how rare that is? woah, time for me to celebrate!
I'm off to do my torturous Vocab homework, and social studies..(both by the same teacher) gah
have a good week ahead


lightness. Instincts are misleading, you shouldn't think what you're feeling

miss me miss me now you've got to kiss me

Hi@ this is me, strewn all over the place..(hold me wrap me up)

today i had a good talk with Janelle. Missed her, it is true. It's the tiny things that make you remember the good things. Had a few good laughs. I'm so not attending school tomorrow. God forbids that i should be sitting in that school hall tomorrow listening to chinese orchestra music. No, no, no. God, life, have bigger plans for me..like sleep. I've been incredibly sleepy the past few days. Thanks to the Chinese, we have chinese new year! )tank you for saving me( ok, off to ring me boyfriend that happens to be patiently waiting

lovelove, love is in the air.....

It is a Sunday! It is Febuary 2nd or 3rd, i'm not too sure. I haven't really been paying attention..to anything actually, but at the same time i am..it's a great skill really.

yesterday i was at nes's place for a while and his gradma was telling us stories while we were lying on our tummies and leaning on our elbo's. Did i tell you how cute his grandma is? complaining about how it isn't fair. That when she was young and active she had to work and had no time for chill out..and now she's old, with all the time in the world to chill out, she doesnt have the energy. haha. But that didn't really stop her, she left to go out after awhile. haha. I like to hang out at his house, it's very..full with people. and sometimes they talk alot..unlike at my house. Could be ghost town..i have dinner alone most of the time. And in my room, its just me alone. Occasionally, my dog joins me. hahaha. Friday night i slept for 12 hours..yeah this is what i call a good weekend. Make full use of your sleeping time ;)

Ok you guys have a good Sunday, im off to get ready for mass. Miss meeeee

Earlier this evening, I heard this nerd telling his two friends that were fighting.. "New year, new beggining, new start." And it just kept ringging in my head. New year, new beginning, new start. New year, new beginning, new start. New year, new beginning, new start. Yeap, just like chuck palahniuk said in his book.. 'And the secret is, this will hurt less and less each time until you can't feel a thing. Trust me on this.' I love how this sinks in. I love it.

Because i feel like all about quotes today

My heart goes out to Heath Ledger. You very sexy sexy dead man.
I am feeling annoyed, with this one person. This one. ONE. How i manage to control my feelings..it is such a wonder.
Sleepy is kicking in, the Sandman has arrived! Goodnight all! think about it.. "New year, new beginning, new start."
I love Nesssssss gah i love you

Teri's party..was fun. Very fun..it was kinda like a club(though) divide the people in the club by..5 and that's what you get. But I would gladly say,that with that little people..i had fun. Didn't really feel like intoxicating myself but somehow Stefan. (you know stefan.......&and Sarah) managed to convince me that Drinking at a non-alcoholic party was alright. With that, i got myself a drink. A little tipsy..but i made it home that night. And Boy, does being an alcoholic drain you out. Physically and in $$$$ wise.
But not to worry my friends, i did not eat grass the whole day! :D

Finally my family actually lived out "family day"-on a Sunday after a long time. Like i had family members (whom i've never met before) come to my house to play Bingo. Yes..you read it right. Bingo. And it wasnt sooooooo bad, i actually made 36 dollars. But my mum and dad call it a "family success" so i divided it by 3. And i made $12. Ok, gotta run. My mum's calling in 'sick'. Gotta run..and check the matter out.

CHOW CHOW

(pictures from Teri's party will be out real soon.Just give jackie a while to upload them)

wrapping your ams around me effortlessly, your whole weight against me, your mouth waiting and your eyes like stars. We could be anybody..but we aren't

waffletown trips, mid-day sleeps, 10 months..i wanna feel like this forever

I don't know how to put it..but it is weird, different and difficult to say it in such...
but it will not make as much sense as it did the last time. But i like it because it hurts, i want it to hurt

Funny how me and jayuire read eachother..just 2 days ago it was a little like this
Jayuire: "She said there's no alcohol at her party!"
me: "No alcohol?"
Jayuire: "ya..unless we....."
Me: "yes, i know what you're thinking"

"A party without alcohol is like cheesecake without cheese..sushi without seaweed..creampuff without cream"
ok, you have to listen to this

I rolled in at 8am today (quietly) and i still credit myself for taking a bath..with how tired i was. Success! Everyone was at jackie's party, so it made it pretty enjoyable(except the journey to changi was terrible)..and after which sitting at Changi, laughing our asses off..a windy night, a good time. With mark going on about "When i was in P1. I was in class 1Silver. And my Form teacher was Misses Tan. When i was in P2. My class was 2Red. My formteacher was Mdm Tan. When i was in P3 we shifted school from frankel to OlPS there, I had a Buddy....and i was in class 3.." Ok, the buddy part and i was laughing uncontrolably. I slept right through till..now. I could sleep sommore. But we all know if i do, tonight i won't be able to sleep, and i'll be a walking zombie on Monday morning. My body is aching all over! ahahaha. I keep picturing what life will be like in 5 years time..it's like i'm too excited or something.

Ruth is going on tuesday..big Sydney life. I will definately be visiting. But i will be missing the gossips, late nights (driving around carparks), making music, making some maggee mee..sitting at mc cafe, everything this is a year(full of changes)

Only close friends(no ex boyfriends allowed)

8th January..and i'm actually holding up pretty good. Except for the fact that your school mates, or leaders could be such fucktards sometimes..i take it all in. On a lighter note, I have an interesting story today that might light up your day!

SO, lets take it back to Saturday. I bought this beautiful, if not enticing fish. A fighting fish..i thought i needed a *personal friend. So for one night i had good company. I talked to it, laughed with it..it was very enlightening let me tell you. It kept swimming to the top, so i being the very concerned pet owner, thought it was hungry threw in a little fish food. But no, it didn't budge. So i thought it needed a little 'fresh air'..but after many minutes, it still kept swimming to the top. I tried to feed it again and it did, yet again, reject the fish food. Already half panicking, I ringed up Nes "My fish doesn't want to eat! What if it dies?" and his reply was "It won't die lah. Feed it tomorrow, it's probably not hugry now." Satisfied with the advice, i left it alone..in the guess room. (Didn't wanna leave it in my room cause i was sleeping with the aircon on, thought that it might freeze to death) Next morning, i get up, anticipating to feed this fish of mine, which i named Clock. Walking towards the little fishy, i realied there was no fishy swimming..Panicking, yet again I open the lid. There i see my dear Clock floating on the surface of the water, drained of it's colour not its beautiful terqouise anymore..it's dead. D-E-A-D. I tear once or twce and i feel like Murderer! It's still a mystery..how Clock died. CANT be the water..can't be that it starved to death. I don't think she just wanted to come to my house to die you know. Oh well...such is life right?

A rush of blood up to the head..school has been fun. But how can i really tell cause it's only been the 2nd day of school, and it's weird that Nes doesnt go to school anymore..He won't call me and night to tell me what happened in his school that was BIG, and what he did after school and all so it's weird. But 2008 is a year of changes. I, as you have already known, HATE changes..for the better..or worse. Besides "changes" i'm down with the flu. My immune system is not strong. I am disappointed. How could it fail on me? It's only the 3rd day of the year! 13 days. Ruth will leave, and Jackie's birthday will come..i want time to fly, But enjoy it at the same time.

I know i'm holding on to tight..but give me some time, and i'll do it right

After last night, I AM MOTIVATED TO HAVE A BETTER YEAR THIS TIME! I had so much fun. (Except 1-2.30 am)
I have accepted that people will change, despite the things we try to do..but that's all good. Cause they will always be the same people you know, even if you haven't seen them in the longest time. So, today is the last day of my school holiday. Worryworryworry..how most of us will spend the last day of our holiday is at my house. Am i ready for school? NO. But keith was right..sec 4 will be interesting!

Plus, i am 16 already! (kinda. you know like 2008..16. geddit?)
Tune in for the next post on how school went. Really really bad..or good. I'm leaning on to the more really really bad. But we'll see. After all, life is like a box of chocolate..full of suprises.